One Shots Book

*I'm trying to forget... (Poofless)*

Hello my cheeses! Today I'm gonna be starting something a little bit different. Me and my fellow SideChicks AwkwardPanda250 RoyalCloudPlato and MadiRosieFF are starting a feelz war. So the next few one shots will have a little star/asterisk next to the title of they're for the war. It's me and Vic (Awkward) vs Em (Royal) and Rosie. This is gonna hurt your feelz. Enjoy~~

Dear Love,

I know you're probably irritated that I bothered writing. I just needed to let you know how I was doing. You've cut off all my contact with you, so this is the only way I could talk to you. I won't be surprised if you never read this, or if she throws it out before you can. She never liked me, Robert. She was always jealous of our relationship. That's why I wasn't surprised about how she reacted. What hurt is when you agreed with her. She called me a f*g (I hate that word agndubd) and you agreed with her. It's now been over 3 months Rob. You still love her and hate me. What ever happened to being open about everything? What ever happened to always being there for me? I'm trying to forget how much it hurt me to tell you goodbye. I had to leave my best friend behind because some b*tch made him hate me. I had to leave my everything behind because he couldn't see the truth. Love can blind someone and I understand that Robert, but when are you going to open your eyes? When are you going to see what you did to me? You broke me Robert! You took my heart and smashed it! I'm trying to forget the words you said to me after she expressed her anger. "What is wrong with you Preston?! I have a girlfriend, and I'm straight. You've gone off the deep end if you'd think I'd ever love you." Don't you find that cruel? Shouldn't that be something a horrible person says? You're anything but that Robert, my love. She's making you evil, can't you see that? Can't you see what she's made you into? She made you yell at me. She made you tell me off. She made you call me a f*g! How am I supposed to live like this?! How do you expect me to continue on when by best friend and love did those things to me?! I thought you promised me that I was special. I'm trying to forget when you held me after Sara broke my heart. You promised you'd never leave me because of anyone else. You broke your promise Robert. And so I broke mine. I've started cutting and OD-ing to get rid of the pain. It's not working, they never worked like your presence did. You were my lifeline. You kept me alive when life was tough. I don't know how I'm still alive. I'm probably just awaiting the day you realize your mistake. We were special Rob. You chose a girl, a mindless wh*re, over me. You've left me alone for too long. I'm trying to forget how you used to hold me when I was scared or hurt. You'd kiss my hair and hold me in your lap. I felt so safe Robert, I want to feel that safe again. I think I just realized something, she's going to come kill me. She's going to realize that I'm trying to change your mind and just kill me. I'm going to be dead when and if you ever read this. And I'm not going to kill myself, although she might make it look like it. I promised to never kill myself, and that's one promise I'll keep. Just like the promise I made to always love you. I can't just find someone else Rob. It's not that easy Love. I will always be your's and your's only. I couldn't ever think of someone the way I think of you. You broke me and beat me into the dust, yet I'm still hopelessly in love with you. I'm trying to forget that I love you. It just doesn't work. I started watching one of our old vids together and started crying half way through. We used to be so close Robert, you let her ruin that. She ruined everything we built up. I'm not going to be sorry I love you, there's no reason to be sorry. Just like you shouldn't be sorry for loving her. That's not why I'm mad and hurt. It's the fact that you chose her over me that hurts. I keep thinking that if I'm not good enough for my best friend, then I'm not good enough for anyone. I'm so sorry to have bothered you Robert, she's probably just going to get mad again. Just remember I always love you, and I always forgive you. I just want the pain to stop.

So, I'm trying to forget you, us, everything Robert. I just don't think I can forget. -Preston <3

Rob read the letter he found in the trash can and began crying. Just yesterday he had found out that Preston was dead, and that he had committed suicide. Only now, he began to question that statement. He believed now that she had killed his Preston. And that, that wasn't allowed.

Hello again! It hurt, didn't it? I hope so, that was the goal. Me and Vic shall win this feelz war, this is only the beginning. *insert evil laugh here* 😈