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Chapter 17. Journal

Ivy

I wake up and see Dami passed out on the couch next to me.

Can't believe we fell asleep on the couch...

Aww he's such a cutie when he's asleep.

It's quite late but we didn't eat yet so I shall prepare some dinner. "Wake up sleeping beauty" I shove his plate in his hands as he wakes up.

Dami looks at me  "Girlll this looks nastyyy" he says in a very zesty way. I look at him with BIIIIGGGG question marks because he know it looks good. "I'm kiddingg" , he better be kidding because I would lowkey be kinda hurt but imma act like the bad bitch I am.

After we finish eating we washed the dishes while jamming to some Bruno Mars,
"24 KARAT MAGIC IN THE AIIIRRRR. HEAD TO TOE SO PLAYER. UH, LOOK OUT. POP POP ITS SHOW TIME, GUESS WHO'S BACK AGAIN!"

" That's our jam and nobody else's" I nod while laughing in agreement.

I take my keys off of the table and get ready to leave, and you won't believe who I see standing outside leaning onto my car. He really doesn't take a hint, funny to think that he was really going to leave me alone.

"Lorenzo, I really don't have the energy to talk to YOU" as I hop in my Range Rover. There he goes messing up my happy mood again, can't believe how he can change my mood so quickly without even saying anything.

I was actually pretty surprised to see him even though he is literally Dami's neighbor. He probably saw my car outside in front of the garage.

Why am I thinking of giving Lorenzo a second chance? We can all agree about the fact that he was being a complete scumbag, but I can consider giving him a second chance.

WHAT NO-   Ivy focus.

He doesn't deserve a second chance. Hell he don't even deserves me. The past is in the past so let's focus on better things. Even though I hate to admit that this doesn't feel good, and I should just hear him out.

I drive off and listen to my music.
(clouded - Brent Faiyaz is playing)

I park my car in a way I can watch the sunset. In peace, I take my journal and write how my last few months have been.

The past 7 months

I really had a love hate relationship with my life. The fact that Lorenzo entered my life had been a blessing and a curse. The fact that Dami entered my life has been a blessing and only a blessing, anything but a curse.

I can talk to Dami about everything whenever I want or feel the need. He is really my bestest friend and has been there for me since the first day. I love Dami.

Benito moved to a different state for his job, so I don't see him that often anymore. Especially after the supposed to be fist fight when Ben decided to use his gun, and months later showing up at my job. Which led to another fight, but this time Lorenzo puts his hands on Ben and not the other way around.

I did meet Lorenzo his dad he's very kind, and he made me feel very welcome since the very first day I met him. I don't really have a lot to say about him because I haven't really seen him that often.

As I read back I can tell that everything I wrote comes back to Lorenzo. He actually had a lot of impact on me the past few months. Even though I don't regret the time that Lorenzo and I did spend together, I wish I never met him. But you learn and move on.

Because when life gives you lemons, you squeeze the shit out of them. Or however the saying goes.

I shed one teeny tiny tear. Not a big one bc I'm still a bad bitch. lol.

I let out one deep breath "Alright Iv ready to go". I get up, close my trunk and hop in the car. Aahhh time for some happy songs.

(Bikini bottom- Ice spice)

"HOW CAN I LOSE IF I'M ALREADY CHOSE? LIKE...
IF SHE FEELING HOT, THEN I MAKE THAT BITCH FROZE
AND I GET A BITCH TIGHT EVERY TIME THAT I POST, DAMN
IF THE PARTY NOT LIT, THEN I RATHER NOT GO. WHYYY WOULD I GOOOOO"

That song always has a way to lighten up my mood, gives me a huge energy boost. Even though I am always with Dami I think I'm going home today, I do think I have to message him real quick.

Me:
Hey Dami I think im going home today, I've got to tidy up my room a bit because it's HORRIFIC.

Dami:
No problem, are you okay?

Me:
Yeah of course you've got nothing to worry about.

Dami:
Okay well call me if you need anything, the key is underneath the doormat.

Me:
Thank you I'll be fine :)

I get into the shower as soon as I get home. And of course something fell and I have no idea what it was. "Hello?" I don't hear shit I'm thinking to myself "aight that's it I'm leaving".

I arrive at Dami's house and he's sitting on the couch, I'm actually not even shocked. If Dami told me he was a vampire I wouldn't even be surprised lol.

"Girlll what are you doing hereeee" is Dami's first question seeing me in his doorway.
"As if, you wouldn't even survive without me. Dami this is my house not yours, don't forget that!" I reply with immaculate pettiness.

He replies with even more pettiness, but what did you expect this is Dami.
"Ohh girl please who are you, didn't you JUST move in." I laugh it away "hey Dam what are you watching?"

"American horror story, I think you'll love it"
I don't even know why I thought he was a documentary type of person lmao.
"urrhhh I'm not really a huge horror fan, but why not try it."

We cuddle up and eventually fall asleep.