underground, nagi seishiro ✓

𖥻 10

as good as seishiro's lips feel on yours, the whole thing is wrong.

you don't know him well enough to do things like that with him. first of all, he was so incredibly shitty to you + judged you without knowing you and you won't let that sit on you so easily.

with all the strength you can muster, you push the well-built one in front of you away from you, his lips slowly and grazingly part from yours.

he knows it wasn't the right time, guessed you were going to push him away.

"are you crazy?" you snap, touching your lower lip with your index and middle fingers, which tingle unusually.

it's not like he was your first kiss, no.

in fact, your first kiss was with meguru three years ago, when he was still reasonably nice, or rather, the day you realized he wasn't so nice.

but you can still remember it clearly.

[flashback]

laughing, you walked with meguru through the huge garden of your villa. his big hand held yours tightly and led you back and forth.

it felt right.

it felt damn right to be in love with him, but it wasn't.

meguru was using you, just for his benefit, for your parents' companies.

overjoyed, you looked at the rosy roses you had planted in the garden. it was only because of you, because they are your favorite flowers.

one of them particularly caught your eye. it was the biggest and the most beautiful of all.

you didn't notice that meguru was watching you all the time.

"you know, you are much more beautiful than any of these soon-to-dry roses," he whispered, so you averted your eyes from the roses, looking at him with a beating heart.

his hand brushed a strand of hair that had come loose from the hair clips behind your ear. slowly he came closer and closer to you until you could feel his warm breath on your face. nervous, you stumbled back a few steps, the sudden closeness causing you discomfort.

but meguru was faster, wrapped his arm around your middle before pulling you briskly against his body. his hand gently rested against your cheek and once again he came closer and closer to you.

this time just squeezing your eyes together, you held still until his lips touched yours.

and it felt right.

right and indescribably beautiful.

you couldn't have known that it was all planned, that your parents and his parents had asked meguru to do this behind his back.

after the kiss, meguru was gone faster than you could look.

it hurt you, so you followed him back into the house, only to overhear a conversation that was not meant for your ears.

"very well done, my son," meguru's father praised his son, patting him on the shoulder. "y/n will surely fall for you now. this way, we don't have to convince her to go out with you and so we can ally the companies very soon."

your heart ached like crazy that day — your first heartache.

he had used you and even though he had always had his eyes on you anyway, he still had used you.

and that should never happen to you again.

[flashback end]

"sorry," you hear seishiro pulling you out of your thoughts, out of the memories of three years ago, when everything really got worse.

if you think about it, you haven't thought about it for a long time. or you've repressed it.

"sorry? you just kissed me. out of nowhere! what was that all about?" you ask him, upset, running your hands through your hair, trying to ignore the strange tingling in your stomach, as much as the desire, the wish to feel his lips again — at least for a few seconds.

rolling his eyes the boxer crosses his arms in front of his chest, his demeanor changes again. his facial expression changes back to this cold, angry one. or maybe he just wants to hide the fact that he's ashamed. it's been so long since he's kissed anyone, even gotten this close to someone.

"calm down! i wanted to drive you away from your little snooty trip," hissing he rolls his eyes again. suddenly, however, he begins to grin. a teasing, almost triumphant grin, which you would like to slap out of his face. "but you have to admit that you liked it," his grin gets wider and wider until it becomes a real smile and you get to see his gleaming white teeth.

stuttering, you want to talk your way out of it, to counterattack, but your mind goes blank.

seishiro has one hell of an effect on you and you're not sure if you like it or not. still speechless, you at least manage to shake your head vigorously, but he has already seen through you.

the kiss wasn't one-sided either, he could feel your lips moving carefully and tentatively against his, even if it was only for a tiny moment.

"you don't need to talk your way out of this, princess. i've noticed it. your desire for more, much more," he comes closer to you, lets his warm hand slide up your arm, causing goose bumps to appear on your skin.

it goes up and up until it hesitantly rests against the side of your neck and his thumb gently strokes there. his free arm wraps around you, pulls you to him, so that no leaf fits between you anymore.

seishiro licks his lips briefly, so that his rosy lips shine slightly, gain even more color. he comes closer to you and you don't retreat, because you want it just as much.

even though it's wrong because it could never become something between you.

suddenly you jerk away from each other as your phone begins to ring. you can still feel seishiro's warm breath on your lips and how you almost kissed again.

quickly ou pull your phone out of your coat, furrow your eyebrows in confusion when you see the name on the display.

yoichi.

without hesitation you answer it, it can't be anything important, right?

he probably just wants to know where you are again and ask you if you can bring sushi when you get home.

"what's up, yoichi?" you ask, watching seishiro closely as his face hardens and he presses his tongue against his cheek.

"come home quickly. dad wants to talk to you urgently. he's fucking angry, y/n"