The Outer Outer banks//Rafe Cameron

I want to be Loved

As I drive off my street I drift off looking back at my house, John b sits on the sidewalk looking at Rafes' car as we drive off.

"Zee?" Rafe stops at a red light and looks over at me. Has he been talking to me this whole time?

"Yea sorry i kinda zoned out" Embarrassing for me. He's trying to help, why am I acting like this?

"You know this is just one guy, you're not even out of highschool yet" Rafe compelled.

"Yeah I know but. I don't know"

"But what?" he caught on.

"I guess, the first guy who saw me you know, the first guy to-"

"Love you" Rafe looked down as he cut me off. He started playing with his fingers nervously.

"It's a green light" I say, trying to change the conversation. He knew. I did love him, I do love him. I don't know how I can stop.

The whole ride was silent until we made it to the place. It was the beach, but he set something up. A tent, with lights and food. He did this for me?

"Rafe you didn't have to." I said in awe.

"I wanted to, I've been wanting to." I've been wanting to? What does that mean?

We walked to the tent and took off our shoes as we entered inside the delicate tent.

"This is amazing, why did you do all of this?" He looked at me and softly raised his hand to meet my face. He grazed my chin and held on to the side of my face. He started to get closer, so close we were an inch apart. He looked into my eyes and smiled.

"Because, John B wasn't the first guy to love you." Quickly I grabbed his face and started to kiss him slowly. He kissed me back, laying me down placing me softly onto the light blue pillow, my favorite color. As we heard the ocean crashing into the shore line we got deeper into the kiss. I want him. I start to remove his white sweater and his blue polo underneath.

"Do you feel comfortable? Are you ok?" He whispers into my ear still on top of me.

"I want you." I say blushing out of my mind.

Rafe smiles, like smile smiles. He looks at me one more time and starts kissing my neck giving me butterflies everywhere. Slowly he starts to take off my crewneck exposing my skin to his eyes only. He starts to kiss me lower until he meets my chest. 

He bites off my bra and places soft kisses on my chest and cups my boob with his other hand. Sucking my skin makes me let out a small gasp. I can feel his smile as he gets lower and lower until he meets the waist of my jeans.

"Do you want this zee?" He asks me to make sure I feel safe. Made sure I was ok.

"More than anything else' I say smiling at the fact rafe cameron wants me.

As he takes off my jeans he unbuttons his pants and comes back up to start kissing me. I feel everything right now. Free, Safe and loved.

We made our way back home. Best night ever.

"Thank you, this helped me a lot."

"I'd do anything for you zee" This time he kissed me goodbye and it felt natural.

How could all this happen in one day? I lost my virginity to the guy I've always had a crush on.

He waited until I got into the house and I looked at the kitchen that had a note on it.

"I had to leave for Rome for a meeting, I'll be back in two days." Moms note said.

Usually I would be upset and feel alone, but I had rafe.

The next day I woke up in my bed, this time I felt alive. I turned to my bedside table and reached for my phone.

No Texts available.

Strange. I took a morning shower and made my way downstairs to make breakfast.

Kie Jj and pope were sitting downstairs already making eggs and bacon.

"Good morning, Birthday princess!!" Kie said while stealing one of JJs blunts from his ear.

"Oh shit, i forgot my own birthday.." I was surprised they remembered and i didnt.

"John b couldn't make it" JJ said quietly so it wouldn't be awkward

JJ knew when shit goes down, I don't even have to tell him.

We all sat down eating breakfast together sharing stories about me, but all I could think about is wanting John b here. But no, I want rafe here.