Are you nervous?

Chapter 6 || Tears

Her pov:

,, Y-you did this?'' I asked almost pulling into tears. Looking at his face I saw how he was trying his best not to laugh in front of my face. I knew it was him. I am sure it is him. I could see it on his face. Is that what he wants? Make me cry in front of 600+ people? Make me kill myself out of embarrassment? Is that what he wants? He went too far this time. How can it be so selfish to steal some girl's panties and stick them to the locker everyone could see? Of course, an idiot likes him. And here I am bursting into tears.  Everyone is staring at me and laughing, laughing at me. I hoped it was just a dream and everything that was happening was just a dream and my mind. But it wasn't a dream, it was real, everyone was real, and everyone was laughing at me. And I couldn't change it. I couldn't hold it anymore. I can't cry in front of people. I ran off to the woman's bathroom and locked myself into one of these 5 staff's.

I started crying like a little baby who lost their mom in the shop. I cried after a long time. I couldn't believe it that was real and everyone was laughing..at me... Suddenly it was hard to breathe like I couldn't breathe at all. I started shaking. My legs shaking, they are shaking, and I can't breathe. No no no no no. It's not happening, it's not happening. It can't happen to me right now at this moment. I started scratching myself to stop shaking, I couldn't stop. I scratched more and more until I bled. There was blood on my hands. blood, my blood. It got worse. I started to punch my forehead with my hand to stop shaking, but I was just shaking more and more. No no no no it can't happen to me right now this time. 

,, Just breathe, just breathe'' I told myself trying to calm myself. My face was already sweating from the panic I had. And then finally I started crying out loud. I couldn't breathe my vision started to blur. I couldn't see anything. I tried to stop myself, and I did, suddenly my heart started to hurt as someone stabbed me right in my heart. It was so painful, that I couldn't breathe more. I started to cough so I could breathe nothing helped. I didn't know what to do any more until someone bang. Someone came to the bathroom. I stopped crying loudly and tried to calm down until I heard a familiar voice.

,, Scarlet is that you?'' I heard a male voice yelling in a panic, he banged on the door harder and harder. ,, Scarlet do you hear me, come out!'' Harden, it was Harden, that damn blonde boy who got punched in the face the last time I saw him. That gorgeous boy who was sitting with me in English class, the one who was smirking at me. It was him.

,, W-What do you want?'' I finally asked him. He was in the woman's bathroom. But I didn't care about that I cared why was he here and how did he know I was here.

,, Scarlie please. come. out.'' He said with a low panic voice. Like I wasn't dying or something that he should panic about some stranger from his class. My panic attack was calming down but at the same time it wasn't my chest still hurts like hell and I couldn't breathe. My blood was still dripping on the floor, and I was still in tears. That situation didn't change anything, I just thought it did. I wiped my tears taking deep breaths of not breathing well. I opened the door and I saw his face. The face my mom used to look at me when I was younger. The face that shows panic and fear, the sadness. The worried face I haven't seen since my dad died. He was worried I could tell from his face. He was taking deep breaths, probably he was running. He looked down at my arm and saw it.

,, Scarlet what did you do!'' He yelled taking my arm and looking at the scratches. It just made my pain more painful than was before. I never wanted anyone to see what is wrong with me, to see my problems, to see my sadness. But he saw it. The boy I knew for an hour or two. I took my arm and put a sleeve on it. It was itchy as hell when it was fresh.

,, It's nothing, I just do it sometimes when..'' he interrupted me. ,, Don't ever fucking say that it's nothing your hand is fucking bleeding! And it's not okay Scarlet'' He said taking my arm again and rolling up the sleeve. He was now looking at it. And I was crying in front of him. 

,, How did you do it Scarlie?'' He asked looking at my face. When he saw my face, his expression changed real quickly. he put his huge hands on my face and started wiping tears. He was that sweet person and I talked to him like he was a rude person. 

,, Scarlet, it's okay calm down, everything is fine'' wiping my tears and pulling me into a hug. I started punching him in the stomach so he won't hug me, I was panicking, I don't want someone to take my pain, especially him the sweet boy I met in the English class.

,, No! get off of me, get off of me! Leave me alone! Leave me alone!'' I started yelling at him in tears again punching him and trying to get away from him. He didn't care at all even though I tried my best to get him off of me. He just didn't care and still hugged me.

,, Scarlet calm down, it's okay..calm down everything going to be fine, just calm down'' hugging me tight as I stopped refusing the hug he just gave me. And when he stopped hugging me and started to wipe the fresh tears that were coming from my red eyes. ,, Everything going to be okay Scarlie, just breathe with me'' He said, He started to breathe deeply and with his expression told me to do it with him. I started breathing with him. Suddenly everything stopped, the pain in the chest, the sweating, the shaking, I could finally normally breathe, and I finally stopped crying.

,, See, it's not that bad, now let me look at your arm'' He said taking bandages from his pocket and wiping the blood with toilet paper. He wiped the blood and put the bandages on. Everything was suddenly silent. He looked at my arm doing nothing and saying nothing.

,, Why do you have bandages in your pockets'' I asked breaking the silence. He looked at me. 

,, I play football, so for me, those bandages are in my pockets'' He was staring at me. Staring with those gorgeous ocean eyes and didn't say a word. I finally asked again. ,, How did you know I was here, and... did you see everything that... happen?'' I asked being curious. 

,, Yes, I did see everything, and I saw how you went to the bathroom starting to tear up, so I followed you, but I lost you after a few minutes I finally find the right bathroom you went in'' I was wide opened eyes. I was embarrassed. I looked down. 

,, It's okay, it's just panties that everyone wears'' He said taking my chin up. I looked at him. He was with a worried face.

,, No not like high school girls.. they wear sexy ones and thongs and I'm here like a 10 years old girl and second of all it is embarrassing when everyone sees your panties sticking to your locker Harden'' I said still looking at him.

,, Oh you remember my name, that rare then those gorgeous girls remember my name'' smiling at me. I giggled. He definitely knows how to make people smile in the worst situations.

,, You think I'm beautiful?'' I asked him.

,, 100% sure most gorgeous girl from class and who cares what you wear thongs or panties, wear what comfortable for you princess'' He knows how to give compliments. He definitely knew. I smiled again, I never heard someone saying I'm beautiful except my mom and Cami.

,, Well you know how to make someone smile rapunzel boy'' 

,, I do'' he said smiling at me and pulling me into a hug.

Hey peaches! So how the chapter, I know I know it's a little bit dramatic but anyways! I used the panic attack simptoms from real expierence so I could write that situation widly. As I remember my last panic attack was with bloody hands from scratching I remember I wanted to rip my skin off of me to stop the pain in my stomach, but my mom helped calm down. So here I am using my real expierence to this book I'm writing. So how Harden?? Do you like him or hate him? I hope you liked this chapter and I hope i'll post soon a new one. But I don't promise so yeah. If I did any mistakes, comment down below and if you liked it please vote, thank you so much for support. Bye see you on the next chapter.

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