Are you nervous?

Chapter 24 || Gift

Her pov:

I danced for 15 minutes until we arrived at his apartment. His apartment was on the 3rd floor number 23 when we came in his apartment was modern everything was so neat and gorgeous. furniture was lightly wooded and the walls were covered in white paint. The kitchen was white and light wooded in color and a mini table with two seats. In front of me was two doors. One's bedroom and the other going to the living room. Harden took my bags and showed me his room where we are going to sleep. It was basic white walls modern light wooden bed desk where he studies, a wardrobe, and nothing else. He next showed me his living room with a tv sofa and coffee table.

,, When is your mom or dad coming back home?'' I turned to him and asked him. I was curious. ,, Do they know that I'm here?'' I asked again. He suddenly started laughing. 

,, Uhm, uh I live here alone'' He said as he smiled. he tapped my head and went to the kitchen.

,, Do you want something to eat?'' He asked me as I quickly started to follow him to the kitchen. He took out from the fridge some kind of meat and then went to take spaghetti, we're having spaghetti with meatballs. He started making circles from the meat while the spaghetti was boiling. He asked me if I want to help him to make a salad I like. I like not his favorite but mine. The corners of my lips rolled into a smile and I went to the fridge to look for what I needed. 

30 minutes passed and lunch was ready. We both sat at the table, poured some spaghetti and salad into our plates, and started eating. ,, IT'S DELICIOUS'' Harden shouted as I jumped from shock. He said randomly. ,, What recipe is this?!'' He shouted again. He ate all the salad that was left in the bowl and his spaghetti was untouched. 

,, My mom's secret recipe'' I said as I tried his spaghetti. ,, OMG.'' I shouted too. ,, It's fucking delicious Harden'' I said as I took another bite of his spaghetti. I took my phone from my pocket and took a picture for Instagram. I looked over at Harden to see him taking his phone too to take a picture. But the difference was He was taking pictures of me,   not the food I was picturing. I hate taking pictures, I always hated them. I don't like how I look in the pictures people take. But this time I let myself smile, I let myself be happy, I let myself shine and pose for the picture. I am getting better each day. I am actually starting to enjoy living this life and not thinking about suidical. I am happy. I don't put on my fake smile every day for everyone so they won't be worried, this time I'm putting on my real smile, that I used to have when I was 5.  

Harden smiled and let me take a look at the picture I was in. I am happy and shining here. I smiled at the picture. Harden put his phone down and finished his plate. ,, Let's go watch some movie?'' He said smiling. He takes my plate and washes them all.

,, What genre do you like?'' He asked again. I like horror movies, I always give them attention. ,, Let me guess, horror?'' He asked again. My eyes widened. I slapped him on his shoulder.

,, How the fuck you know?'' I asked him. He wiped his hands with a towel and wrapped that hand around me. ,, I know everything my princess'' He said, he grabbed me in the bride's position and took me to his living room. ,, I have a question'' He asked me, I nodded.

,,  Can I post this beautiful girl on my install and say happy birthday?'' He asked me and showed me the picture of me and spaghetti in my mouth. I nodded. He smiled and turned on the movie. After uploading the picture, he stood up and went to his bedroom, leaving me confused. Minutes later he returned with a big grey soft blanket and wrapped me around it. ,, It's kinda cold in my apartment'' Harden said. He is a very good friend, he's so nice and kind to me. He always cares for and protects me. He's always there when I need him. That's why he's my best friend.

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40 minutes passed and I got a call from someone, and that someone was James. I excused myself and went to the bathroom. I answered the phone and James started shouting.

His pov:

,, WHY THE FUCK YOU ARE AT HIS HOUSE? AND WHY DID YOU LEAVE BEFORE SAYING GOODBYE?!'' I shouted at her worried and heartbroken that I didn't see her face before she left. For a sec it was all silent. Fuck, did I scare her? She spoke. ,, Okay...uhm first of all WHAT THE FUCK, second, WHY DO YOU CARE?!'' she shouted back at me. ,, YOU THINK YOU OWN ME OR SOMETHING IDIOT? WHAT ARE YOU LIKE IN LOVE WITH ME OR SOMETHING? ARE YOU JEALOUS?'' She shouted again. I had no words. Yes... I do like you, Scarlet. I'm deadly in love with you Scarlet, but you can't know that I won't let that happen. I don't deserve you. I'm a piece of jerk that bullied you for the past year. I hear her shouting again.

,, What do you want James?!'' She shouted. ,, Why are you in his house? You just our house and you already at this jerk house'' I said calming myself down. She gasped some air. I heard Harden's voice behind her speaker. He was asking if she was okay and why she was shouting. It's my fault. UGH FUCK! ,, Why didn't you tell me it's your birthday..?'' I asked her. I completely ruined her birthday. 

,, Why should I? You're not my boyfriend or a friend that you should you know, you're nothing but my enemy and you will be that way.'' She said. I felt how my heart shattered into million of pieces. I am nothing to her. Nothing... except that we should hate each other. 

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Her pov:

3 hours passed when James called me. I know I said hurtful things to him but that was the only way I could hang up the phone and that he would leave me alone. I regret every word I said to him. Maybe I actually like him. I think about him every second. That's why I hate him from the first meet. Not because he was so rude to me but because I fell inlove with him from first look. At first it was just a crush. But later seeing him with girls kissing him and sucking his mouth, I got jealous. I always liked when he was jealous when I was with other boy. The fact that I thinked he liked me. But he doesn't. He hates me for who I am. For literally no reason. I hate myself for that. I hate when someone hates me, it makes me think I'm that bad person, that world should get rid off. But it's not. I was body shamed in 6th grade, I was bullied that I don't have boobs or butt. They called me door and fat girl. My dad always used to say I'm mistake. Now him. He hates me that I exist in his life. Maybe that's why I always cry for him. Maybe because of all people that hates me I wanted to kill myself, I used to cut myself every single day. And the thing is no one cared, no one noticed. Because this world doesn't care about you. and thats why you should care about yourself.

Harden fell asleep on my shoulder while watching movie, he's a sleeping princess what did I expect. I put his head on my thighs and scrolled phone. Seconds later I fell asleep too.

Peaches!!! Peaches!! It's comfirmed Are you nervous story will have 40 chapters! So it's ending soon! Anyways how did you like this chapter? Kinda short but I wrote at 3 am in the morning what do you expect?! Anyways I stopped going to the therapist, she's says I'm getting better. Also sorry for not posting this long, I had busy month. First was my sisters birtday when my cousins birthday lter that cousin was over at our house for a whole week. So yeah busy month. Anyways I hope you have a wonderful day/night and summer, bye peaches!! Love you all so much! <3

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