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Chapter 14 || Best day

Her pov:

7:12 am Monday

I woke up today super late, I just couldn't get up from the bed saying 5 more minutes but ended up falling asleep. I got from the bed rushing to the bathroom to at least brush my teeth so my breath won't make people pass out while talking to them if talking with them. I brushed my teeth and washed my face with dried tears. I rushed to the bedroom again to dress up, today I decided to wear a zip-up black sweater and dark blue jeans. I got my hair in a ponytail and went downstairs skipping breakfast as always. I was lucky that I got ready in 15 minutes. James and Cami were already waiting for me. I could see Cami's confused face saying,, what the fuck where were you?'' probably. I got in the car and James drove to the school.

,, Would you mind explaining to us why we should wait 50 minutes here?'' Cami was pissed off. She was so mad at me for oversleeping.

,, Sorry, I went to sleep late and didn't hear the alarm'' I said lying because I did hear the alarm I just ignored it and fell asleep, but that is just embarrassing. Looks like Cami doesn't know what happen to me last night, I hope James didn't tell her and I hope he won't.

,, That isn't an excuse, anyways I thought you were killed in bed bleeding through white sheets, for fucking sake'' She said turning again to the front. We drove so fast to school and Cami said goodbye to me as she walked to the popular group of people. A month ago she asked me if I wanted to join but of course, I said no. I hate big groups of people. I rather have one friend I can care about the most than have a bunch of friends and leave one left out and be with other friends. I would blame myself for leaving some friends alone and hanging out with others. I went to school where so many people screaming, talking, laughing, running, or just standing near lockers and talking with their friends. All so colorful and happy and I feel so depressed with black colors on me, without a smile. I think it's necessary to smile all the time while you walk by people, like for what? Just walk with your normal face and study all 8/9 hours and go home. In school, everyone dresses up like it's a fashion show, not a school. Well, I'm going to school and they going to the fashion show to show off to their crushes and boys so they can fuck those girls all night long. That is so fucked up. I might think wrong, but that's what I think. I went to my locker to pick math book.

,, Hello princess'' I heard a voice behind my locker door. The only person who calls me princess is...

,, Hello sleeping princess''I said back closing my locker doors and looking at Harden who smiling at me and me standing with no reaction like Wednesday Adams. He looks like a golden retriever like his dog. He is always so happy, fun, energized, and comforting, he can be a great friend to anybody. It's good to have company at school while Cami is with popular girls. I know I know everyone now thinks that she toxic friend because she leaves me alone, but she's not. She has a lot of friends and can't come with them all at the same time. At school she was with popular girls, who bully me, but didn't tell Cami, I don't want her to lose friends because of me. After school, she's with me.

,, Wanna go to class together?'' I said confused about what does he want from me.

,, Exactly my point, princess'' He said and his smile got wider. I gave a mini smile and got back to the straight face and started walking to the math. While I was walking to the class I got a message from James. I looked around but I didn't find him. I checked the massage.

James:

James- walking with your boyfriend, aren't ya love?

I looked up again and looked around and my eyes caught him on the other side of the corridor looking straight at me also talking with boys. I ignored him and continued walking to the class with Harden.