Are you nervous?

Chapter 24 || Birthday present

Her pov: 

I finally woke up, I checked my phone and saw the time || 11:26 am || Oh damn. I slept long. Ugh, it's so embarrassing. Harden was already gone. WAIT, where am I? I'm on the bed! I remember I fell asleep on the sofa! What happens? Harden came through the door smiling and giving me his hand.

,, Why are you so nervous, don't worry we didn't have sex or something, I just carried you to my bed because you looked uncomfortable.'' He said laughing. I took his hand and he dragged me to his kitchen where food was already on the table. I sat down and Harden brought me a warm made latte from the coffee machine.

,, How do you pay for everything here, if you live alone? Everything looks so fancy'' I asked, he looked at me. For a minute everything was silent until I spoke again. ,, I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked you that'' I said continuing to eat. I laid my head down regretting everything I said. I hear him talking again.

,, No, it's okay, I work a lot of part-time jobs, that's why, you can ask me anything and I will answer you'' He said as I looked up and saw him smiling at me. What a friend should be to answer every single question you ask. Well, that's a true friend. We continued eating, and after we finished I went to the bathroom to wash my face from swollen. I got a text. It was an invitation to a party. I never got an invitation to a party ever. I don't even know anyone at my school except Harden, James, Ethan, and Cami. I decided that I will go so I grabbed my luggage and asked Harden to drop me at my house. I want to be today sexy and hot. I want to have my first kiss, I don't want to be a virgin anymore, and If I don't lose it today I'm not a normal teenage 17-year-old girl. 

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It's 8 pm and party is about in a hour. I did my makeup and now I'm looking for the smallest and sexiest dress ever. I found a a red gorgeous dress. It was not really tight but it will fit. It really suits for my golden makeup too. I put on my birthday present from Cami and a dress and for the first time I felt gorgeous in a dress, I felt confident about myself. I put on black heels and went downstairs to pack my purse. In a purse was money, phone, lipgloss and tissue, you don't know when you need tissue. I went out and called Cami when she gonna arive. I asked her to pick me up because that party is in other side of the city. 15 minutes later Cami arrived with James, of course. Ah so embarrasing, I just yelled at him last night and now I have to be in the same car with him.

 I sit down in the car and tried to avoid James. He looks at me. No he's admiring me. We arrived at the party, there were so many people in that party. When we entered house Some guy offered us a drink. I accepted. 

,, James you saids you won't go, when I told you I'm going'' Cami asked James. ,, Fuck off'' He shut to her face. He looked at me, I  quickly turned away and took a drink. I instantly drink all cup. I was so nervous by him. I went in a big group of people dancing and took random dude to dance with. He wrapped his hands around my wasit and we started dancing. I swear to god I looked like slut. I was dancing like a bitch. 3 hours passes and it's 12 am  we're still dancing and I'm so drunk like James and Cami. Well James doesn't look so drunk but maybe he's used to it. I wanted to kiss someone so I grabbed random men and wasabout to kiss him. James pushed the men away and grabbed me. I looked over the men who was on the floor, It was Ethan. Everything was messed up! James took me upstairs and sat me down on a random person's bed.

,, What were you thinking?!'' He shouted. ,, Why did you try to kiss him?!'' he shouted again. I sat down here drunk not knowing how to put words. I want to kiss James. I want him to kiss me had like he kissed those girls. I want him to taste me.nHe sat down near me. I went near him. He got confused. I was about to kiss him. I was about to taste those lips I wanted to taste for a year. He spoke and ruined everything.