STRANGE [ben chilwell]

XIX

2nd October 2022
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It had been 2 and a half weeks since everything had been said and Sofia missed her boyfriend.

Well, she didn't really know if she still had a boyfriend after the last time they spoke.

Ben had went to England camp a week and a half ago so Sofia didn't have to worry about seeing him but yesterday they had a match which meant they were back.

Sofia went to her mums after the situation because she needed time away from him but she didn't realise the time would be even longer as she was never told about and she wasn't at work to be told.

To say that she missed Ben was an huge understatement. She didn't feel herself without him but she wouldn't forgive herself if she forgave him straight away after what he said.

What he said hurt her a great amount and she hoped he didn't mean it.

She and Bambi were having a day out together because Sofia really missed Ben and needed to get out of their apartment complex since wherever she looked there was a reminder of him.

She decided to buy Bambi some more clothes and toys as she loved spoiling her.

She was currently in Tesco getting herself a quick lunch when she hears a voice that is instantly familiar.

"Sofia?" She turned around to see Mason behind her, walking towards the mother and daughter duo.

"Mason, hey." She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, embracing him before Bambi cries for her mum's attention.

"How have you been doing?"

"I've been better, sucks being hurt by the man tour in love with." She sighs and shrugs her shoulders.

She knew Ben would've told him about what he said at the England camp so she didn't pretend that she was great.

"Well if it's any consolation, Ben is a mess." Sofia coils tell her was being serious because of the pitiful look on his face.

"It does make me feel better actually." She chuckles before sighing once more and then taking a deep breath to keep herself together.

"I've honestly never seen him like this before, he regrets saying what he did so much." Sofia looks at her ground and messes with her hands.

"He should be, he made me feel like shit." She says after awhile of staring at the ground.

Tears brim her eyes when Mason wraps his arms around the girl who looks like she's about to breakdown.

"I'm ok." She takes a deep breath and shakes her hands to calm herself down.

"I know you are." Mason smiles softly before they part ways once more.

Sofia was thankful to bump into Mason, it brought her peace knowing Ben is also suffering.

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Sofia and Bambi were on their way back to the apartment after Sofia heavily spoilt the 4 and 1/2 month year old.

Part of Sofia was hoping to not run into Ben but the other part of her wanted to so she could rip into him and show him how much he hurt her.

And just to her luck, as the doors of the lift were closing, someone's arm obstructed them from closing - making them open again - and when they did open, Ben was standing before her.

He cleared his throat before getting into the lift and standing next to her.

Bambi was in her arms as she had just been crying from the lack attention and when she saw Ben she immediately began to wriggle out of Sofias arms and straight into Bens.

Sofia expected because of the bond they made but right not in an awkward situation was not the time to want cuddles off him.

Sofia handed her over without any hesitation but she never said a word to him whilst she handed her over.

Ben broke the silence that filled the lift whilst they ascended to their floor.

"I'm sorry."

"Mhm." Sofia wasn't about to forgive him as he had hoped, she wanted to but she wasn't going to do that to herself.

"I know it was wrong to say and I'm so sorry. I feel like shit." Ben looked at the girl standing next to him but she wasn't returning it.

"Good." As much as she wanted to wrap her arms around his neck and kiss him she knew she couldn't as she wanted to show that she was annoyed.

"I know your pissed and you have every right to be but I'm going to show you how much I regret it and I'll earn your love back." She sighed before stepping out of the elevator first when they approached their floor.

"I have every right to be mad-"

"I know and I'm sorry if I made you feel like your feelings aren't valid." Her face drops as he interrupts her. "Sorry, continue."

"I have every right to be mad at you." She repeated herself to in grave it into his head. "And what you said hurt me so much because I love Bambi so much even if when I look at her I sometimes see him and that's so difficult but she's still my baby girl so I will always love her."

Sofia has to take a few deep breaths and compose herself before she continues.

"I am not a slag, and I did not ask to be raped or get pregnant as a result but I wouldn't change anything." She takes Bambi off Ben and walks into her apartment, not even giving Ben a chance to explain.

Ben knew he fucked up and he wasn't going to give up the girl of his dreams.

And he was about to prove that to her.