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12.

"If you ask, how big my feelings towards you are, no one will tell you, because infinity is uncountable..."
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He blinked few times looking at the picture, where both of them ware sharing a peck on a lips.

In jisungs eyes, tears appeared. Seeing something like that was such a strange feeling.

There was a fingerprint so he gave it a shot and tried, if he could unlock it.

He successfully did, because minho wanted to share everything with jisung at that time.

He opened the gallery and sat next to the bed on the ground.

He lowered the volume and brightness on the phone and went through the pictures.

There ware numerous photos of them together, holding hands, eating ice cream, making pancakes, having fun.

And then a video caught his eye. He clicked on it and watched it.

He saw himself. He was lying in a bed and probably minho was recording him.

He had ruffled hair and his cheek was squish as he was lying down.

"Say it again." Said minho from the video.

"Again what?" jisung from video smiled and pretended to not know.

"Just say it. I want to have it on a video." Minho was giggling behind the camera. Jisung never heard minho laugh and giggle like that.

He was just always smiling and softly spoken. On the video he was playful and teasing.

Jisung was watching the video and tought to himself. "This is who I was attracted to?" The question wasn't ironic. He was genuinely interested in the person that he was attracted to. He wanted to know why.

"I love you more than anything in the world. I could not bare to be without you now that you're in my life minho..." jisung from the video said.

Jisung was looking at the video and his heart started beating fast. He covered his mouth and his eyes ware glossy.

Hearing him say such a thing about minho just made him emotional. If he loved him this much and now feels nothing towards him, he felt awful.

He quickly turned around, when he heard a quiet sob.

"Minho?" Jisung got up and put the phone back.

"You found the phone..." he smiled through the tears. "Even... after so many years... I couldn't open it... or change your fingerprint... I had to buy a new one..."

"I'm sorry for going through your phone..." jisung apologize.

"What was once mine was always yours as well... I'm not mad." He started drying his tears with the back of his hands.

"Minho,... aren't you scared?" Jisung asked with close to no expression.

"Scared of what?"

"That im not the same person that you fell in love with? Arent you scared that the person that died will always be dead? Minho... everything that i was... is gone... even my feelings toward you... and youre doing so much for me... seeing myself in those photos and videos... it feels unfair... im mad... mad that i cant repay you for your kindness..." jisung was also crying at this point. "... i just... want... want to remember..."

Minho got up from the bed. "Jisung... your feelings are valid... you lost your memory of everything..." minho got closer and put a hand on jisungs head. "And I know that I always repeat myself, but even if i had to say it million times, I will. "Minho put his hands on jisungs cheeks and dried jisungs tears. "No mater who you are... no matter how you look... or act... you're still Hannie that I love and deeply cherish... nothings gonna change it... even if you end up dating someone else..." minhos voice got quieter. "... I'm just glad that you're alive... healthy and strong... because that's all I want you to be... no matter who you are... with whoever you decide to be..." minho put his hand away and with the other brushed jisungs hair behind his ear. "You don't have to date me... for me to be happy. I already have everything that I can ask for... and that's you being here. You're not and will never be obligated to date me or be with me because I brought you back alive... remember that... ok? Hannie?"

Jisung was still sad. But he managed to smile through the tears. "Let's go to sleep now... you must be tired..." minho said helping jisung to get up from the ground. "You need to get a lot of sleep."

Jisung went under the blanket and watched minho get under his one as well.

"Good night, jisung." Minho said.

"C-can... you call me by my first name?" Jisung said looking at minho lying next to him.

"Hm? Han?" Minho tought that jisung felt uncomfortable by him calling him jisung.

"The way... you said it before..." jisung said looking down.

"Hannie?" Minho assumed, because he never called jisung Han.

"Hm... good night..." jisung blushed and turned around.

"Good night hannie." Minho turned around smiling a little.

But then he felt jisung wrap his arms around his body.

Jisung wanted to scent minhos chocolate scent, because he felt little bit uneasy, and he felt comfortable when minho put his hands on his cheeks, so he figured out that hugging him will bring this calming feeling back.

Without knowing, he fell asleep after just few seconds.

Minhos heart on the other hand was beating like crazy. The scent of chocolate was soon mixing with the less prominent scent of vanilla.

This sweet mixture of scents calmed his heart soon and he as well as jisung fell asleep.

This mixture of pheromones was like a drug to minho. He was abstinent for four years and now enjoying it more then ever.

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When jisung woke up in the morning, minho was still sleeping.

He was lying close to him, but not hugging him anymore.

Minho was facing him not like last night when they fell asleep.

He was looking at his face. His sharp features, his beautiful long lashes and pink lips.

It was somehow calming to look at his face.

Without realizing it, jisung fell asleep again because it was still pretty early in the morning.

When he woke up again, minho wasn't in the bed anymore.

He yawned and got up. He walked to the kitchen and saw minho preparing a breakfast.

"Hey jisung. I prepared you breakfast." Minho said putting a bowl full of colorfull fruits on the table.

"Its yogurt with some oatmeal walnuts, raspberries, blueberries, strawberries and some banana." Minho said. "It's good for your brain. Oh- and do you want coffee or tea?"

"Thank you so much..." jisung said surprised. "I'd love to drink some tea."

"I'll make you some then." Minho said.

Jisung started eating the yogurt loving the taste of the food.

After few minutes, he handed jisung the tea.

"Here's your tea." Minho handed him the cup.

"Thank you." Jisung said smiling

Jisung started drinking some of the tea.

"Minho... I feel something... inside..." jisung said all of a sudden.

"Do you feel sick? Or does your head hurt? Do you need painkillers?" Minho asked worried. "Or should i call chan to check on you?"

"I have this bad feeling, that its coming minho..."