Lipstick || l.s

nineteen

This is a very short chapter and I apologize in advance! But this chapter may or may not have a little but of ziam. I'll try to update again soon but it may be tiny chapters like this!

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Zayn's POV ((woah!!))

It's been a while since harry wasn't in school. We don't know what's going on with him but Louis reassured the three of us that Harry's fine.

Louis and I are still great friends but since Harry came in, he obviously made Harry a much greater priority than me. It doesn't really bother me though, I'm glad Louis and Harry have found each other because they are absolutely perfect for one another. If only Louis was into guys and Harry considered dating, they would be the perfect couple.

Liam and I have been getting closer since it's only us two and Niall. Niall is a huge social so he has way more friends outside of our group. I don't mind it though and Liam doesn't seem to mind.

My feelings for Liam have been developing the last couple of weeks. I just can't help it, Liam is too darn cute! Although Liam's physical appearance may seem tough, but he's actually adorable. He couldn't hurt a fly if he had to.

I'm too nervous to express my feelings towards Liam because I definitely do not want our time to end. I don't want Liam feeling awkward and weird around me. If Liam doesn't like me back, it would hurt at first but I'll get over it. But at least I would still have him as a best friend. It's so complicated.

I'm planning on asking Liam so questions on gay relationships. If Liam is open minded on dating a dude, maybe I'll allow myself to fall for him a bit more.

The two of us walked to Liam's house after school. We plan on doing some math homework together but we both know that it won't happen. Liam plops on his bed while I nicely sit on the edge of his bed. Looking around the room, it's an absolute pig stye. There's clothes all over the floor, used plates on his desk, empty water bottles everywhere you turn. It's horrendous.

"Liam your room is disgusting!" I said.

"It was cleaner than last week, I vacuumed," Liam responded.

I get up and start picking up his clothes from the floor and threw it in his hamper. "Liam, you have a hamper right here, why can't you throw your dirty clothes in there?"

"Because you do it," Liam said before he gives me a very cute smile. I can feel my cheeks begin to blush so I turn my face and try to make his room clean enough. I bend over to pick up some clothes, not realizing my butt was facing Liam.

"You have a perky, little bum zayn," Liam said while giggling.

"Don't look at my bum!" I said before blushing like mad.

"There's nothing wrong with your bum," Liam said.

"But still."

"I won't look at your bum if you don't want me to."

I didn't say anything back, I just turned around and walked over to Liam's hamper to throw his last pieces of clothing in there.

"It's not very heterosexual of you to look at my bum," I said to Liam while I took a seat back on his bed.

"It's very heterosexual and very platonic, girls do it all the time," Liam said while he stares at his ceiling.

"Well, you'll never meet a girl who's 100% straight, the one who considers them straight are only about 98% straight."

"I believe that guys are like girls too."

"So you believe that everybody is homosexual in a way," I asked.

"Of course, I don't even believe I'm 100% straight, I feel like I'm like only 70% heterosexual because I wouldn't really mind if I dated a dude."

And that's when the butterflies starts settling in my stomach. Liam just admitted that he wouldn't mind if he dated a dude. I can already feel myself starting to fall for him even more.

"So would you consider yourself bisexual?" I asked.

"Maybe not bisexual, but maybe bi curious. I would like to experiment before I set myself to being just bisexual, or just straight, or just gay. I don't know what to label myself just yet. "

"Liam, you don't need a label to define your sexuality. You shouldn't really set yourself to one sexuality because it can change. It all depends on who you are attracted to."

Liam was quiet, I look over at him and I see him staring at his ceiling. "I agree with you, labels are too pressuring towards us. In the end, we are attracted to humans. Unless you are into some incest or beastiality sort of thing, which I think is very weird, I don't think there's anything wrong with liking who we like."

Honestly, my head is through the roof. Liam is completely open with liking males or females. I could actually have a chance with Liam! Should I say something to him about my feelings? Or is it too soon. Maybe it's too soon. I'll give it another month before I say something. Maybe I should come out and tell him that I'm into males, I guess that's a start.

Oh my goodness, I'm very nervous. Maybe he doesn't need to know. But, he's your friend, he would not think of you any differently since he's completely open with homosexual or heterosexual relationships.

"Liam, I have something to tell to you. I haven't said anything to anyone except Harry," I said with a bit of fear in my voice. Almost like I would regret it.

"You can tell me anything, you don't need to be nervous," Liam said before he places a hand on my thigh.

I swallowed hard because that hand just ruined what I was going to say. Liam's hand can cause my death.

"I-I just want to tell you, that I'm s-sexually attracted to males," I said as calm as I could.

Liam looked at me like there was nothing wrong with me and I'm thankful.

"I figured why you would tell Harry," Liam said before he smirks. My goodness he makes me weak. "I'm glad you told me though. Don't be afraid to tell me anything Zayn, I'll still be your best bud no matter what."

"It means a lot to me, thank you Liam," i said.

"No need to thank me, I'm just trying to be your friend," Liam said.

Liam pulled me in for a hug. I can't believe how good this day has gone. Nothing can make me happier that I have Liam as a friend and that I can develop my feelings for him without fear.

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very short I'm sorry again!

I'll update soon again! I promise!

Thank you all for being very supportive! I love you all so much!

~ Rose