Piece Of Heaven (Jaehyun X Renjun)

Glimpse Of Yesterday

[This is the continuation of the previous chapter]

[Flashback]

03.22.19   11:45 P.M

“You just met him for a short period of time, now you’re marrying him?!”

Renjun was glad that he’s inside his room and was alone so no one could hear his father as it was really embarrassing.

“We’ve been on for almost two years…” he said almost like a whisper while head was dug on his chest, kinda embarrassed and shy as he confessed.

“You don’t know how much we’re worried about you, especially your mom!” Renjun remained his head down while picking the skin on the corner of his thumb. “You’re so inconsiderate! Your mom could have got another heart attack! You don’t care at all!” Renjun couldn’t hold his tears anymore as he sobs silently.

Wishing to end the call before he lose everything and decides to just cancel the wedding.

He thought his parents would be okay about it as he confessed being attracted to same sex long time ago and they accepted him wholeheartedly, though his father was still processing that information— but he learned to take a step and hug him eventually, and now that he's getting married, why's everything he feared of was coming to him? He thought they would be fine.

“I love him.” that’s the only words he could compose, still choking with the big chunk on his throat.

“That’s stupidity! You even skip your classes and fail your subjects because of him, you runaway and stayed over with him and now you’re getting married?! That’s bullshit, Renjun!”

He could hear his mom at the background trying to calm down his husband, it guilt Renjun so much, he’s aware of what he’s doing and he’s already asking for God’s forgiveness.

“Don’t ever come back here, I’m so disappointed—” Renjun immediately ended the call before he could completely hear what his father was saying, though he knows, he’s much more of a disappointment.

Hugging his knees as he rest his chin on it, swaying his body in able to calm himself down— like a baby being rocked by its mom when he's crying. Thinking what did go wrong and when did everything went wrong, why's his parents— his father— was fine if it's other man, but not him, why's he encouraging him to just get somebody else as if everyone was a complete copy of Jaehyun? He'd never find somebody as passionate, as soft-spoken, as gentle, and as loving as he Jaehyun do.

He might find some but why would he? If he already had him the best?

Is it stupid to choose him over anything? It’s not that he can’t multitask or if he's having difficulties to do everything at once. He could still have his degree while having a part-time job and having a relationship at the same time.

He just have to choose one to let go, he just have to let go his job for what's better but why does he feels like he’s losing everything he have just because he prioritize relationship?

Renjun was working at the café— he's bleeding off his hand for a small salary but he's fine with it, long as he could provide his own stuff. Jaehyun is a regular customer at the said café, so Renjun knows him a little. Until Jaehyun made a bold desicion and that is to ask him to teach him some lessons he's taking— weird at how Jaehyun was obviously older than him and probably even a degree holder, but he just accept it regardless, Jaehyun was willing to pay anyway.