Not Allowed To Love You || JJK

episode 27

Jungkook dropped her separate when they got to the car parking lot.

Look, I know I did something wrong, but I'm willing to pay for it. You may insult me as much as you want, but not in front of Jiminah; he's already upset, and I don't want to make him any more so." Jungkook pleaded with Yn, who rolled her eyes at him.

That's enough. I don't want to be here with you." Yn was about to depart, but Jungkook hadn't done yet.

Wait, you can't go. Let's talk first; I want to clear up last night's misunderstanding; tell me if I touched you without your consent." Jungkook asked, standing in her path.

There's nothing to say to you; I'm your madam, and you're my servant; quit going the other way around." Yn said, and Jungkook sneered.

Let your Servant please you, Madam." Jungkook replied, attempting to seize her wrist once again.

No, don't touch me. Are you preoccupied with my wrist or caressing me for no reason?" Yn scoffed and took a few steps back.

Madam." Jungkook gets down on his knees, removes his belt, stretches his hands with the belt on them, and hangs his head low, "you can hit me and punish me however you want if I misbehave with you in any way, I deserve punishment if I cause you discomfort." Jungkook murmured, and Yn took deep breaths to hide her emotions.

Do you believe it's that easy?" Yn questioned, grasping his car mirror for support; her legs gave away when Jungkook answered. "Fine then allow me to punish myself because I know if I go against you, that's gonna hurt you more." Jungkook raised his head, and his eyes revealed how much anguish and agony he was dealing with alone.

Go ahead, if you want it that bad, I won't stop you, but I want you to behave the same way you did before, do anything you want, just don't come to me with those look in your eyes." Yn opened the car door and sat inside.

Jungkook remained in the same position, clutching the belt tightly in his hand and hitting it in his body with a sharp speed, causing the leather belt to sting his arms and shoulder. He was using his entire strength on the belt, and it happened so many times that yn forgot the number of strokes Jungkook had done on himself. He showed no mercy on himself, and the belt hits would leave marks for several days.

Yn couldn't hear the horrific sound anymore, so she covered her ear and started crying harder, maybe it help jungkook to forgive himself, maybe it help him to not look down on himself and he understand that we can't be hero in everyone's life, we can't save everyone's life, sometimes we just have to do as they want, you should only help them who asked you, you can't force someone to take your help, jungkook have to understand he's not everyone's saviour in this world.

People prefer to fight their own battles, and this time yn let Jungkook do so without interfering, but as we say na, "Whatever going to happens, it doesn't matter. But when it's started to happen it's become unable to see it." This scenario is better for Yn, she believed letting him do anything he wanted would be pleased him, but now she can't see it since she's so hurt.

Aren't you done yet? You're making us wait too long." Yn remarked, losing her sanity, she immediately got out of the car and hit Jungkook several times on his throbbing head.

Look at me, I said, what you think you're a hero in some movie, how can you hit nonstop? Doesn't it hurt?" Yn questioned, kneeling against Jungkook and stroking his cheeks with her delicate hands.

The feeling of pain is nothing compared to your respect; everything comes later but, if you're my wife, I have to respect you; how can lust take away my respect for you?" Jungkook stated, the whip marks visible through his torn shirt, and yn had to hold him to soothe his feelings and emotions.