Not Allowed To Love You || JJK

episode 34

Jungkook entered Yn's provided room, where she was sleeping soundly on the couch, and Jimin nudged Jungkook on the shoulder before leaving him alone in the room with Yn.

Jungkook sat beside yn, taking her hand in his and caressing it softly. He has no right to cry and let the pain of his guilt lessen. According to the report, yn has been dealing with mental health issues for many years, including insecurities, trust issues, and fear of losing, and no one knows it better than Jungkook. She just trusts, believes, loves, cares, needs, and wants her jungkook, and what jungkook does, he leaves her alone for the sake of their daughter.

Yn was always willing to battle anyone to stay with Jungkook, whether he was angry, sad, or happy with Kookie. She was constantly with him from the beginning, and Jungkook let her suffer alone rather than finding a solution to the problem.

No, never. Jungkook never left Yn alone, even offering his own brother to wipe her tears when she refused to allow him near her. He shared her sufferings with her.

I know you fight the world for me, but what about me? I'm fighting with my own person for love."

Yn has never understood her neurological illness, and no one can blame her for being ill. At least not her jungkook or her family, who readily secured her.

How could a mother hate her own child? And it is not Yn's fault that she cannot accept a new person in her life. She simply cannot accept the new authority in Jungkook's life.

Isn't it clear from the beginning that Yn does not want a child? You can't criticize someone who is surviving from mental illness, and there are few opportunities for yn to combat her own preconceived notions.

She tried but failed to save herself.

Depressive disorder, anxiety, fear, panic attacks, trembling hands, cloudy thinking, inability to make the right decision. It is not an easy thing to go through.

As a big-hearted man, Jungkook allowed her to find calm without him as she wanted.

Jungkook couldn't believe she was the same yn who was such a different person throughout her pregnancy. Perhaps she was attempting to transform herself at the time, focusing so much on her mental health that it caused her additional stress.

True, yn stated that she does not want a child, but as time went on, she accepted it. They were overjoyed with yn's fluffy tummy, but she began to have mixed feelings. Sometimes she refused to stay with the babybump, and other times she played too much while caressing and talking to her belly bump.

It wasn't easy, but they all embraced her as she was.

In the end, she refuses to accept their tiny angel.

Jungkook couldn't forget how he handled himself since he felt brutal for forcing yn to give birth to their child. But how could he allow his heart to betray their kid, who was already developing in his lover's womb? He didn't have the heart to be so cruel.

Jungkook, the son of a father who abandoned his children and wife, cannot be the same person. No, not in his entire life.

When Jungkook saw Yn waking up, he frantically wiped his tears. Yn looked at Jungkook and stared at his blank eyes, puzzled.

"What are you doing in my room?" When Yn questioned, Jungkook simply shrugged his shoulders.

"This is my house; I can go anywhere." Jungkook said and yn scoffed.

What prompted you to come here?" Yn asked.

"Why am I not allowed here?" Jungkook asked back, afraid to finish the conversation.