Not Allowed To Love You || JJK

episode 28

Tell me why you harmed yourself so much, why and why accepting what you did was so difficult for you." Yn said as she hit Jungkook's chest several times.

You have no idea how I used to hurt myself whenever you grieved because of me in the past; I don't allow others cause you grief any more than how could i allowed myself cause you anguish and tears; I get what I deserve, my Love." Jungkook thought to himself.

Coward like you only can do that but can't accept me huh, tell me tell me damnit why you're mute now, accepting my devotion was that hard for you, I was begging you to forgive me but you just ignored me as if you were forcing me to follow after you,  you only show me hate." Yn said crying in jungkook's arms.

Who's gonna tell you? Jungkook said and shut his mouth again, diverting his gaze to the other side.

Who gonna tell you, I have never hated you, and I cannot hate you even if you cause me pain, grief, or death, because I will always come after you, lovely." Jungkook thought to himself.

You never had mercy on me; I begged you not to leave me, not to despise me, but you only did what you wanted. Yn muttered, gripping Jungkook's throat with her claws.

Mercy?, I wish God had some mercy on me, the person I want to treasure my whole life, I have to display fake hatred towards them, and you're saying I didn't show you mercy, I wish I could tell you how I begged for mercy." Jungkook had minimal tears in his eyes thinking the painful remarks to himself.

You never allowed me to be with you, you never showed me what affection feels like, you were so cruel to me, my whole life was a lie, I lied to myself that one day I'm going to change you, I'm going to make you forgive me, you'll love me like you used to love Jimin Hyung, but you never changed, you never loved me." Yn remarked now, grasping Jungkook's hair in her palm and forcibly yanking it.

Jungkook want's to laugh at her words, allow ? Cruel ? Change? Love ? Does she even understand what it means, God knows how many times Jungkook knelt in front of them to give him his yn, his sweet back, but no, he was never allowed for anything. Instead, it was Yn who decided that Jungkook would never forgive her, love her, or accept her. As for the forgiveness she speaks of, In the place where Jungkook never hated her for anything, so whatever forgiveness she's referring about, Jungkook could fight to the moon and back for her, but how is he supposed to fight with her damaged mind? Jungkook isn't cursing or blaming her for anything; he knows it's all the result of his deceased father Whom did Jungkook curse for his disastrous life, and who is no longer alive? The answer is still pending.

Let's go home." While attempting to lift her up, Jungkook stated.

No, I won't go. That mansion is not my home, nor is there a home for me, You broke my home already, and now it's my turn to break yours. ." As she pulled away from jungkook's grip, Yn spoke.

She passed out as soon as her head touched the second shot because the booze had taken over his thoughts.

Just as Jungkook reached out to touch her, two anonymous boys shoved him away. "Hey are you going to use her alone, share with us." A boy said, and Jungkook saw red.

The boy who attempted to touch her was pushed down by Jungkook, he then pulled up his head and pinned him to the ground, choking him with a single blow while grinning and saying, "I detest dogs like you." The second boy silently stared at Jungkook. And then jungkook brutally hit him in the face, causing him to pass out.

I'm driving yn home, so come get those two bastards I left in the Sinhee Bar restroom, they're my prey; don't even dare to wash your hands on them." On the call, Jungkook addressed Yoongi and ended it without waiting for his response.