All for you.

Chapter 12: nightmares and day terrors

Y/n:
I helped Nora change into more comfortable night clothes that I found in the guest room closet. I offered to help her change but she refused and made me turn around as she didn't want me to see her. This slightly hurt my heart but I pushed it away wanting her to feel comfortable. I changed my own clothes to an ever style night dress. Now that Nora was in a short sleeve shirt and pants I could even more clearly see the bruises and marks that lined all over her arms and neck. "Let's get some rest darling ok?" She nodded and slowly climbed into the bed. I soon fallowed. "Is it ok if I touch you darling?" I softly said. She sucked in her breath and whispered softly "y-yes" I gently pulled her head into my neck and allowed for her to cuddle close. I took one arm in her hair and the other loosely around her waist. I softly played with her copper curls until I felt her breathing slowing down telling me she was sleeping.

Lesso:
(Dreaming) I tugged at the chain that held my arm to the wall. "Fucking hell?!?" I yelled while trying to move my arm. "Y/n?? Clarissa???" I said out loud hoping someone would show up. "Hello again Leonora..." fuck. "Rafal? What do you want!!". "You didn't think I was going to just let you go that easily, did you?". "Rafal mlpo what do you want with me?I just want to live my life I'm fucking done with you!!" He grabbed me by the neck and started to choke me. "YOU. BELONG. TO. ME!!!". "NO!!" I woke up soaked in sweat and gasping for breath.  I didn't know where I was. I had forgotten that I was in a guest bedroom at the school for good. "Nora!!" I barely heard y/n's voice as I struggled to ground myself and calm my breathing. I felt strong arms grab me from behind and force my head to lay on their chest so I could hear their heartbeat. "Deep breaths... in and out". I slowly started to breathe normally and I finally realized where I was. "I'm so proud of you Nora, great job" y/n said softly. I sucked in a deep breath and realized that my neck hurt much like in my dream. I tried not to think much about it and to just focus on y/n's steady heartbeat. "I love you Nora" where the last words I heard before I feel into a dreamless slumber.

Y/n:
I softly played with Lessos soft curls as I listened to her breaths calm down and slowly felt her fall asleep. I couldn't fall asleep after that and just listened to Lesso's breathing. What happened in that dream? I knew that she would have a hard time falling asleep for a little while but I didn't realize how bad this aftermath was going to be. We still hadn't talked about her being pregnant and I was scared for her to have that conversation. I didn't have a clock near me so I wasn't quite sure what time it was, but the soft moonlight streaming through the curtains told me it was around 2ish in the morning. I stayed awake the whole time just clinging to Nora and making sure she was safe. I wasn't going to lose her again.

The next morning

Lesso:
I felt a pair of eyes on me as I started to wake up. "hi raven" i whispered. "hi Nora" I heard y/n softly say. I started to blink my eyes to look around and then did I feel the dull ache in my leg. I scrunched up my face as the pain contorted to a throbbing as I slowly tried to stand up. "Don't. Please Nora let me help you!" Y/n practically shouted at me as I stubbornly still tried to get out of bed. "Leonora Lesso! Get your ass back in that bed now!" I heard y/n yell at me. I froze not wanting to find out if I didn't. I sighed and slowly sat back down, pulling my leg up onto the bed hurt like a bitch but I wasn't going to complain anymore. Y/n stood there with the smuggest smile on her face. I just rolled my eyes and stared back at the ceiling. "Thank you darling!" Y/n sweetly said and came over and kissed me on my forehead. "I'm going to get you breakfast I'll be back!" Before she left practically fucking skipping down the hall.

Lesso:
With y/n gone I could finally think. I sat there just staring off into space when I finally looked down and realized I was still pregnant. It's kind of funny. I guess I thought that if I ignored it and presented it didn't exist then it would magically resolve itself...(obviously it didn't) but I was alone and I could just think for a moment. I never really allowed myself to think of having children, my job would make it hard and honestly I just never could see myself with the right person. Any dream of conceiving on my own accords and time where destroyed the minute Rafal touched me. I had a dull ache in my heart thinking that now I would always be connected to him if I had his child. I felt so fucking angry at him. He stole my choice, he violated me and I can't stop feeling him and everything he stood for all over me. I hadn't even realized I was crying until my breath hitched in my throat. Fuck I'm not shedding anymore tears because of him.

Dovey:
With Lesso on leave I was put as temporary head of both schools. I sat in my office with stacks of paperwork and lesson plans as I just tried to slowly work my way through them. I finally gave up and decided to take a break by paying Lesso a visit. I soon found myself at the Evil Deens door. I hesitantly knocked remembering the last time I was here. "Who is it?" Came a reply from inside. "Clarissa, can I come in?". "Hmm let me think... no." I gasped not quite sure what to do. "I'm kidding Clarie come on in" I sighed in relief and rolled my eyes. I walked in and saw her sitting in her bed. It was obvious she had been crying due to her eyes being puffy and red. "Oh Leo... what's wrong?" I softly said. "I don't know what I should do. I have a child Clarie!" She looked up at me with her piercing Ocean blue eyes and I immediately sat down and pulled her into a tight hug. "Leo I don't know what to tell you but, you would be a great mother and even if you don't end up becoming one from this I fully know that you would have made the right call regardless" she sniffed and shakily said "I'm not ready dove... I can't have him always be with me. I don't think I can let my child come into this world with that monster being their father." I just gave her a soft smile and comfortingly rubbed her back for her. A few minutes passed before Leo finally spoke again. "Hey Clarie..." I raised my eyebrows to shoe I was listening. "How long does it take to get breakfast..."

A/N:
Hi!! Sorry kinda a cliffhanger. I'm kinda running out of ideas!! Also I'll try and update a little more. I had a moment when writing when I was like fuck y/n I'm making this be a Dovesso thing. Lmk if anyone would want maybe a separate one of those. TYSM for all the ppl who have read this we are almost at 2k!!! ILYSM :))