Help Me, Help You.

Ziploc Baggies (Dean's pov)

He hung up.

Rude.

I pushed those thoughts aside. All that remained was anger and determination.

"Dammit Castiel!" I threw my cell on the bed. Thank god there was a bed there. I grabbed Sam's laptop off of his bedside thingy. I typed

Kansas phone & address book Castiel Novak

Into the google search bar. I clicked on the second link and searched for his number. I hummed the batman theme song once I found his address and memorized it. It was pretty close, I was there in like five minutes. (I had to find the right apartment number)

I pounded on the door with a closed fist.
"Castiel!"
*knock knock*
"Open sesame or Ill kick your door's ass-ame"

Apparently that made him speed up. I almost fell onto his floor when he swung the door open. I pulled a crumpled plastic freezer bag out from my pocket and held it so he could see. I shrugged.

"How did you get my address?"

I stepped inside. "That doesn't matter. What does matter is that I'm here for you now." I hugged him tightly. I brushed all the hair off of his forehead and placed a light kiss on it. Then I trotted over to his kitchen.

Castiel just stood there, right behind his closed door, and stared at me. God, those eyes would be the death of me. I grinned at him from behind his dirty kitchen sink. "What?" I threw my hands up in surrender. "I thought that was our thing now." I tore my eyes away from Castiel's. I started rummaging through all of his drawers, knick-knack bowls, etc., and pulled out anything that he could cut himself with.

"In the bag, in the bag, in the bag,"

"What the hell are you doing Dean?"

"I'm taking away any temptation you have. I've seen your scars. I want to help."

"How will I cook without knives?!"

"Come to my place, or you, me, and Sam can go to a restaurant."

I ran to his bedroom. I pulled all the clothes out of his closet. I threw his handgun into the bag. I went into the bathroom and took all of his razors.

"Dean, how am I supposed to defend myself?"

"You have Sammy and I, and we'll stock you up on monster shit."

"How will I shave?"

"Well, I think that you look nice with a little dirt, but when you need to you can use an electric one. I don't think you'd go far enough to use that."

"Why are you doing this?"

"You hung up on me Castiel. You hung up in me after I said not to do anything stupid. I'm making sure that you don't." I was on the ground, so I got up and looked in his eyes. Those pools of crystal blue just stared at me, piercing my soul. Punching my face. Sucking up my strength.

"You will not hurt yourself on my watch."

Suddenly Castiel wrapped his arms tight around my waist. He laid his head against my shoulder. "Thank you, Dean." I hugged him back. "No problem." He released his grip just enough to look me in the eyes again. Only this time, they were welling up with tears. "I mean it. No one else has even tried to do this for me. I think it's safe to say you're one of my best friends.. All of the other friends I've had just told me to quit or to stop thinking like that or, ugh it just doesn't help, Dean they didn't help! I couldn't do it!"

I cut him off by pulling him closer and hugging him tighter. "It's alright Cas, I know how rough it can be, how rough it is. In here for you. Damn, you're too nice for this shit. I'm here to help. I'll at least try."
I tousled his soft hair with my fingers. After awhile I released my grip and rested my hands on his shoulders. "I'm here for you."

I pulled him toward his little couch and made sure he sat down. There was a linen closet next to the front door, so I brought out a couple of blankets and gave them to Castiel. He had the remote in hand. "Find something to watch and I'll make a snack for both of us. I'm going to hang with you today."

He grinned. "Okay." I gave him a dirty look as I took a fruit salad thing from the fridge. "Now don't go all Fault-In-Our-Dweeb-Teeny-Bopper-Sappy-love-Story on me Castiel." I set the styrofoam bowl on the countertop and peeled the colored Saran-wrap off. I picked out all the apple slices and washed them. I found some Carmel candy and nuked it in the microwave.