My Youth | Unlucky

Chapter 2

I was assigned to Urology Clinic. I prayed and hoped that I didn't landed into Eye or ENT.

When I arrived at the clinic, I was blessed that the crowd didn't seem too crowded unlike the centre. Stephen and Dorothy were unlucky and was assigned to Eye Clinic while Dorothy was assigned to sports medicine.

I noticed majority of the staffs were Malay hijabis. I wondered why?

The Urology clinic is for people with urinal issues like gul bladder for example. Thankfully I don't have to see gory things. Over for the next few days I didn't do much and just observed on how the staff do their work and assisted then when they needed assistance. To my surprise, they still use case note unlike most hospitals charts the patient records into the system. As my interviewer mentioned before, this place is way backdated and they are the last to hands on experience the EPIC System.

Unlike NUH, they don't have a cashless system. They still collect cash and I'm bit worried on payment skills as it's been a long time since I handled cashiering.

When I finally get to hands on, I referred to my notes as I did my work as they steps were slightly different. It was also along time since I did manual registration on SAP and I have to admit I prefer using EPIC as its much convenient.

My leg shaking habit has caught the attention to my boss and she spoke to me asking how I am and I declared that I had mental illness. She asked me why didn't I declare during interview and I told her there was no need for me to. They didn't have the right to ask.

At least they mention they don't discriminate staff with mental illness and they looked out for staff well being.

After a few weeks being there, I started to rethink my choices of being there. I didn't felt the spark of joy like I use. I was facing boredom. People say it's normal. Yea its normal but.. what's the point if you don't find joy at work?

If I joined other hospitals it will definetely be the same thing.

Was it this place wasn't challenging enough or was I becoming lazy or just lack of interest?

I was much looking forward to work when I first started but as days pass I felt dreaded heading back to work. Like there was no sense of motivation for me to strive.

I missed those happy days serving patients with my old team. It was fun even though it was a stressful. I tried not to think so much of my previous workplace but I can't help compare the work environment and culture. The good thing about working at KTPH was it wasn't so hectic, there's less job and I have work life balance.

But I hated the distance that I had to travel. The same bad habit of me still uses the taxi apps. Ugh! I know. When will ever quit that habit?

At least Grab notices I'm a premium member.

The best thing about KTPH was not only work life balance but the food. The cafeteria had so much food halal food to offer. There was my Japanese & Korean stall, my favourite. Western, which was quite pricy, Malay crusine and other shops like Mini NTUC Fairprice, Liho and Mr. Bean.

I wished there were more shops to look around like NUH but there weren't. Too bad the cafeteria wasn't Kopitiam cause I would be able to enjoy staff discounts.

The more I compared, the more I wished I was back at NUH. I wished I didn't had to leave.