blood,drugs and suicide. (frerard)

The bureau (desk)

I got to the desk, where I sat and written my lyrics over and over on my one peace of paper, I was going to make this song perfect. The others where practicing behind an old curtain, where I couldn't see them... I curled up on the chair, thinking hard to myself *hmm I'm not okay, aha great song title,anymore titles I could use? Maybe um 'I promise'? It's not really as good. I wonder if I can put them together, I know! I'm not okay (I promise) yes that's great!* I stuck to my thoughts and let the guys get on with the musical side of things, after all I don't understand music. It's another language to me!

8=====D an hour later {[]}

"Hey gee? We're ready!" Ray called out a muffled sentence from behind the curtain.
"Okay cool can't wait!" I called back. Mikey started playing his bass, it went a bit like this, da da da da da da da da but really fast. Then suddenly bob's drums came in. Duh duh duh duh duh, came a lower sound. Frank's and ray's guitars enter the tune "da DA" it banged.
"Guys?" I whispered.
"Uh yeah Gerard? yeah what do you uh think?"they all jinxed.
I laughed quite loud. They looked worried I wouldn't like it.
I replied. "THAT WAS..." they still looked worried as I held on to my sentence. "TERR-" they looked shocked.
"AMAZING!" I screamed!
"Um I gotta go back to my" I rolled my r's "BUREAU"
They said that's okay so I left and went back to thinking. They carried on playing and all I heard was *thud...thud. ..bang...strummm.* I poked my earphones in. Twenty one pilots was playing, blurryface their newest album which was very well done. I blasted the music up fully.

-----the next day at gerard's house-----

"Ugh hey mom, sorry I just woke up, I'm tired cause I was very busy at frank's last night. Where's mikey anyway?" I plodded down the stairs to greet mom in the kitchen.

"He's gone to the shop for me gee." Mom yawned.

My anger was building up now because mom was so lazy and never did anything for her self. Always made us do everything. In the end I shouted at her for it and she sent me to my grubby room. Moments later she came upstairs, I heard her feet tapping around the landing, finally she came into my room and sat down next to me on my bed. "Hi mom, sorry about that, I'm kinda stressed out at the moment." It was only because I was sure I was ready to come out to her. After all if I get bullied anymore about my "faggotness" then a teacher might find out and ask my parents why and I don't know what I would say, better to get it over an done with and if she takes it the wrong way, oh bad but her views suck dick so we Are equal, if she says she's okay with it then. Great. I taken a deep breath and said "mom? don't take this the wrong way but...I'm. ..gay." she had a shocked expression on her pale face for a second then talked calmly back. "You know how I feel about your sexuality ger-" I cut her out and simply replied "G.A.Y mom, I am gay and I will not change that to make you happy because it's what I feel inside. Now please could you go down stairs and leave me alone. In fact, do what you want, I don't care what you do but I'm going to my BOY FRIEND'S" I said boyfriend just to piss off mom, she replied to that "awful" comment and said "boyfriend? You never told me you had a boyfriend. Who is he?" She was obviously quite dumb if she didn't guess by now who my boyfriend is...I said..."frank mom,it's frank." She looked Confused for a moment and said something which really shocked me, "STAY OUT OF MY HOUSE AND GO TO YOUR FUCK BUDDY, HE WILL HAPPILY SUCK YOU OFF!" I hated instantly what she just shouted at me so yes I will go to my "fuck buddy" I mean for gods sake, I'm a Virgin!
The door unlocked, I heard the shuffling of feet in the hallway. great! My self centered brother was home. "Who the fuck is here? Where is everybody?" He screamed up the stairs. "Mom? Where's that little bastard?" Meaning me. That's what he always called me. I was enraged by his comments because I was fucking older than him. "I'm here you twat, mom Is here too!" I called back down the stairs. Mikes walked up to meet me and mom. He walked in and punched me when he found out mom was crying. He picked me up by the collar and left me hanging off his muscly arm. He asked why mom was crying and she simply sobbed "gee is gay"
Mikey looked frozen in his steps for a second then his voice was pretty much as deadly as a flame. "GET THE FUCK OUT, THIS IS NOT YOUR FAMILY ANYMORE!" He cried. Mom said that I had a boyfriend and explained who he is. "His boyfriend, he never told me about. Is his best friend, y'know the franky kid?"
He screamed "THAT'S IT GET OUT, WE HATE YOU NOW GEE."
I cried back at them trying to hold back my flowing tears "OK I FUCKING WILL, YES I WILL FUCK HIM THEN IF THAT'S WHAT YOU KEEP TRYING TO SAY TO ME." I stormed off, got a bag and went to frank's house. Distraught by the turn out of things, my life would've just got harder if it wasn't for frank or just generally any of my friends. I knocked on his door. He opened it with a big grin stretching across his face. He stopped and saw I was upset.