blood,drugs and suicide. (frerard)

my depression...again.

After 2 whole months of having minimum depression, it comes back to haunt me again. Just when I thought it was going well. I don't cut or atempt suicide, only because it would leave my family distraught. Call me a pussy all you want but I know that even if I feel depressed, I wouldn't want to do the same to my family. Elena my grandma recently passed away and that, In my lonely mind has triggered my deep depression to come back.

I moved to a new school after getting expelled for hitting on some kid that I kinda liked the look of. Yes my school was very homophobic. The day I moved, my mind was all over the place, I had books, new timetables and other shit to worry about, not only physically but also, mentally, in my head. My mom doesn't care about me one bit but loves my younger brother, mikey. Our dad left our mom because she, yes she, abused our dad. I don't blame him for leaving, he was right to do that because our mom is evil anyway.

My first day of school was horrific. The Moore high school (my old school) was full of idiots and homophobes but my new school, it's just as bad. Although my new school or prison, I like to call it, is pretty much the same, my teachers are wonderful and that was the only thing that urged me to go into school until one day, I met frank. I was in the last year of school and this could be my future...