blood,drugs and suicide. (frerard)

frank's POV

I thought it was about time I went and checked on Gerard. He seemed, different. Oh god I hope he's alright. Have I done something?

My mom called me from the kitchen and asked me why I haven't been seeing Gerard for the last few hours. I explained politely then left down the passage to my basement. The cold hit me as if it was snow, I ducked under an old blanket and that kept me warm enough. Where was Gerard?
He must of kept the light off.
I turned it on but he isn't here?

The window was open so that's why it was so cold down here. I went over to shut when I figured that if Gerard isn't in here, then he's obviously behind the curtain! I pulled the curtain to one side. He wasn't there. The window was last option of hiding so I made my way towards it again, then I froze in my tracks. Blood poured out from behind the furniture, staining the floorboards the cured wooden tables and chairs. Then I saw a small, sharpened blade. Gerard never told me he cut! I traced the blood outside of the window. It was dripping off his arm... I then noticed that my first aid kit was open and that a bandage was missing. He used it so it must of been bad. I thought the worst, what happens if he knew he was about to die and climbed outside to die before the snow fell? Maybe he needed it to cover up his body! All these thoughts swam In my head. Right now though, my thoughts where on Gerard. What if he didn't think I loved him anymore? I know full well that I love him! I was destined to find him but how and where!?
My head hurt from all this worrying. I grabbed his blade, and instead of making my way upstairs again, I slit all the way up my wrists...that's one thing about me Is that I can be very hippocritcal when I say to others "don't cut!" But that's what I'm doing now. I can feel Gerard's pain as it's slicing through my delicate,pale skin. The blood trickled down my legs and arms. I felt all dizzy like I was fading fast...how can that be? I didn't cut the vein.
Maybe it's because this was my first time cutting. It Hurt bad. I fell into a shallow sleep then it became deeper. I collapsed.