blood,drugs and suicide. (frerard)

drums of the city rain.

The rain fell heavy, it turns out I'm in another part of America...idaho to be exact. It was a long journey but I didn't notice how long it actually was because I was lost in a long sleep half the time or I was being raped by a man in the shadows. I had a massive sleep again before this but either way I was still tired.
I looked around and I realized I was in a fucking huge ass city.
Remembering that frank called me earlier, I quickly dialled his number into the phone but it went right into voice mail. Maybe he's gone searching for me?
I tried again...It did it over and over again....I suddenly looked down at the screen and it appeared to be ringing me back. Frank was the name it displayed meaning it was obviously him. I picked it up with hesitation..."hello frank?" I whispered. The line was quiet between us for a moment then he spoke. "Omg gee I'm glad you're alright. I was worried sick about you! Where are you and why did you dissappear?" He sounded shaky and desperate. I replied "I'm sorry too babe's, I'm not handling life the way you think I am. It's all too much for me and I'm better off away from everything and everyone. I am safe and happen to be in idaho in a station I don't know the name of. It's raining and it's cold. I'm hungry and tired and I have been living rough over the last night or so. Please forgive me...I hope you understand and just don't let me go as I will come back looking for you one day...what I mean by all of this is that..well....I. ..might not... ... .. .*line goes* the line went dead. Crackles left the receiving end of my iPhone...what I wanted to say to him was that, I might not come back. ...ever....
I feel as if I am not fit for this life and I would be happier without all my stress...I was thinking deeply. If I'm going on about depression and suicide then, surely I can just decide my fate here. I looked down at the small drop down to the electrifying tracks below...that force would be enough to take my own life.

I decided I was ready to jump...

I taken my last breaths and said my last words "I love you frank iero..."