The Secrets Between Us

Responsible at my own party!?

***********************************JOCELYN POINT OF VIEW***********************

I had passed the limit of drinks I should have stopped at, yet i still couldn't stop. Some guy had come over to dance with me and since i could barley stand on my own anymore, I let him. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him, his hands gradually moving dangerously close to my butt. I didn't feel bad at all? Once the sting of rejection had left me after a couple of drinks, this guys attention and closeness actually felt good. Suddenly he pulled me close to his body, so close there wasn't an inch of the front of my body not touching his.

"Do you want to go somewhere a little more quiet?" He whispered into my ear. Now that he mentioned it the loud music was starting to make my head pound.

"Sure.." I managed to slur. He started pulling me towards the stairs and opened up the first door on the left. It was empty, and in my drunken state of mind i realised it was the room I usually stayed in when I use to spend the night over Jemal's.

I was so drunk at the party I didn't even realize I was in the room alone with this random boy until the door was shut.

"You look so beautiful Jocelyn" he whispered in my ear. He started kissing on my neck. Why wasn't I telling him to stop?

Suddenly the door was shoved open and I saw Jemal. He looked so pissed off. But I didn't understand why? Hadn't he just rejected me? He told me he didn't share the same feelings, so why was he standing in the door way, chest heaving up and down? There really shouldn't be so many secrets between us.

"Travis man, get off her. now.". Jemal said in a dangerously low tone. Travis looked up and stopped what he was doing immediately. He looked as confused as I was.

"Sorry dude, I knew you and Jocelyn were close but I didn't realize you were a thing" He said

"Were not. But she isn't like the other girls.Go find some other girl willing to open her legs, Jocelyn is off limits."

"She didn't seem to be stopping me, why don't you let her decide for herself whether or not she wants me here" Travis challenged.

Both the guys looked at me waiting for my answer.

"Uhm.." I slurred. "Travis you should go. Thanks for the dance though". He give a deep sigh before getting up. Before he left the room he turned to Jemal.

"No hard feelings man". Jemal just shook his head and Travis left. For some reason anger surged through me. I walked up to Jemal and began shoving his chest.

"What". shove. "Is". shove. "Your". shove. "Fucking". shove. "Problem". No matter how much i pushed him he didn't even move. Then he grabbed my arms from hitting him and stared into my eyes, with a torn expression on his face.

"Jocelyn your drunk, your not in control of your actions". He told me

"Why do you even care." I yelled in his face. "I'm no longer important to you remember". A look of hurt washed over his face.

"Of course your important to me Jocelyn, your.."

"I'm what" I questioned.

"Your my best friend.." He answered. For some reason I got the feeling he was lying, either that or hiding something. Out of no where i started to get dizzy and the entire room started spinning. I guess all those drinks started to catch up to me.

"Jocelyn, what wrong"? I heard Jemal ask but it seemed as if his voice was distant. Like i had something muffling my ears. The urge to puke washed over me and I pushed passed him and ran into the bathroom. It felt like i hurled every drink I had into the toilet. Jemal came up behind me when I was done and handed me a paper towel. Then he softly gripped my arm and pulled me into his bedroom.