Without you I'm nothing

Chapter-39(But i love you)

Nicola put Harry on the bed because he slept on her shoulder while crying. Nicola looked at Harry like he's a little boy. He caressed Harry's cheek before got up. Harry was slept without his knowledge because he still need rest. In the evening Harry woke up on the hospital bed shocked like he had a bad dream.

Harry: Mom? Mom.. Doctor? Matt..
David rushed into the room when Harry shouted Nicola and Matt name.
David: Harry are you okay?
He stood up next to him. Harry shook his head and pulled off the blanket to stand up. But David stopped him.
David: You can't walk.. You're injured.. Take rest..
Harry groaned.

Harry: I don't want to take a rest.. I want to see Matt.. Where's he?
David looked at him concern. He wiped the tears on Harry's cheek. Harry looked at him with his glassy eyes. Nicola entered into the room.
Nicola: I'll take you to Matt..
She assured him. Because she knew how painfully clinched Harry's heart now. She also in the same situation. David and other nurse helped Harry to sat on the wheelchair.

Nicola: Harry you should be strong in front of him..
Harry: What happened to him mom?
He asked and looked at the way while tears wetting his cheeks. Nicola didn't say anything. David walked next to them silently. Once they're in front of the room where Matt was Nicola sat on his foot in front of Harry who looked at her like a lost puppy.

Nicola: He's in a coma stage Harry.. When those bastard hit you and Matt they left but I saw them.. I asked one of the man that what they're doing but they said they came here to see their boss.. It's hotel so I didn't ask more.. We all waited for you and Matt but you two didn't show up so I called the manager and opened the door.. When I entered into the room I saw you two in unconscious state.. We took you to this hospital.. Doctor said you're not in the critical condition.. Those bastard hit him on his head so his brain injured severely.. But the good news is it's a temporary coma.. You're only person who can pulled him out of this condition Harry..(Harry sobbed while shook his head) Stay strong and talk to him normally.. He need you.. You knew how much he loved you right?(Harry nodded) Then talk to him lovingly and remind him your memories to him..
She wiped her tears. And kissed Harry's forehead. David patted his shoulder and opened the door before entered with Harry. Harry felt fear occupied him. His hands are trembled. He saw Matt lying on the bed. His breathe getting irregular every move he went close to Matt.

Once he's near Matt David hugged Harry from behind and left the room. Harry looked at the man who's looks pale and lifeless. Harry forgot to breathe but he exhaled his breathe fast when he heard Matt's voice in his corner of brain. He couldn't see his husband like this.

He was sobbed while closing his mouth tight because he don't want to disturb him. He lifted his other hand to touch Matt but pulled back. He was afraid to being next to him. He blamed himself completely for what happened to his Matt.

Harry: I'm sorry.. Please.. Come back to me.. I I'm really sorry.. I should haven't seen you.. I screwed up your life..
He said in his low voice while put his head on the bed. He didn't stopped crying. He turned his head to look at Matt's face. Every time he saw Matt's face he felt guilty. He held Matt's hand and kissed it.

He knew Matt can feel it or not but he want to stay next to him all the time. He never thought his life would change complete miserable one. He felt he destroyed Matt's life because of his love. He didn't care about himself but Matt. He wants to give happiness to the man who loved him selflessly but now all he gave him a pain. He cried the thought of how much Matt felt pain before he passed away into coma stage.

He felt sorry for Nicola because Matt's a only person who she has to her side. But Nicola didn't show any hatred towards Harry. That made Harry more guilty. He sobbed silently. So he felt pain on his chin which is injured. He slowly lifted his hand to touch Matt's cheek. He did and caressed the pale skin with his trembling hand.

He again put his head on the bed while rubbing his thump on Matt's hand. He remembered one of their cutest moment.

*Flashback*

It's a fine evening. The sun slowly going to his house while pulling the darkness. Matt went from office and put his bag on the couche. He step into his room slowly like a little girl walked step by step because his love sleeping on the bed. It's a one of the days before the vacation. He looked at Harry who's sleeping on Matt's bed on his stomach lips parted. His hair looks messy.

His shirt was exposed the skin of his hips that's tempting Matt. But he don't like to take advantage of sleeping person. So he entered into the bathroom to take a shower. He came out and put t-shirt and sweat pants. He sat next to Harry and took a book. He slide his back on the head board and caressed Harry's hair while reading a book.

Harry: I loved you more when you doing this..
He smiled while snuggled more on the pillow. Matt chuckled and looked at his man.
Matt: Are you awake?
He asked still playing his fingers between Harry's hair. Harry looked up at him.
Matt: You looks like an angel..
He took Harry's face between his hands. Harry smiled and closed his eyes to have a kiss from Matt. But Matt kissed his forehead before took his book in his hand. He smirked when Harry stare at him.

Harry: I hate you..
He mouthed at him. Matt laughed.
Matt: But I love you..
He said before fixed his eyes on the book. Harry got angry so he pulled the book from Matt's hand before threw aside on the nightstand. Matt sighed but he pulled Harry towards him. So Harry got between Matt's legs. He put his back on Matt's chest. Matt wrapped his hands around Harry. Harry giggled when Matt buried his face in Harry's tan skin neck.

Harry: What do you do if I gone..?
Matt put his head on his shoulder. Harry slightly turn his head to see him.
Matt: I didn't get it..
Harry: What do you do if I died..
He asked clearly. Matt pulled back his hands so Harry turned to look at him. Before Matt stood up from the bed Harry pulled him back.

Harry: Why do you get angry? It'll happen one day..
Matt: Stop that fucking conversation Harry.. I can't image that.. I just can't..
He shouted so Harry startled. He twisted his lips and looked away. Matt rolled his eyes and pulled Harry close to him.
Matt: I'm sorry.. I ask the same question to you.. Answer it..
He said and kissed Harry's cheek. Harry sighed.

Matt: What?
Harry: I'll come to you if you ready to lose your soul from your body..
Matt: Don't you dare..
Harry: I swear Matt.. You're my everything.. I can't live without you.. I lost my two precious gem already.. I can't lose you too..
Matt didn't know what to say at the moment. He also can't love without Harry but Harry was in love with him blindly. That made him nervous.

Matt: Harry if anything happen to me you've to live your life.. Promise me..
Harry looked at him.
Harry: I can't.. But I promise I'll never leave you at any situation..
That's not convince Matt but he don't want to talk about it anymore. So he held him tight and kissed his lips who willingly gave him what he wants.

*End of the flashback*

Harry looked up at Matt and smiled.
Harry: I'm here next to you.. Please wake up for me.. I couldn't see you like this..
He felt tears flowing down his cheeks like water falls. He couldn't help he kissed Matt's hand and sobbed. He started hate himself for putting Matt into this situation.
Harry: I love you.. I love you so much.. I'm sorry..
He repeat those words like a mantra. He even don't know Matt could here him or not but he keep saying this..!