I am alone.
I don't have something that I believe in, I don't have a faith. Hell, I don't have faith. At all. And not because I believe so fundamentally in science that I can't believe there is anything else. I believe in ghosts sometimes, but I don't believe in the afterlife in the sense of heaven or a God.
I can't. I can't believe in a god that would take and take and take some more without ever giving anything back. How am I supposed live thinking that there is a being controlling everything, making every decision about factor of my life? Of everyone's lives? Dictating who lives and who dies. Letting every tear fall to my cheek, letting every cut I make bleed.
If there was a god I would ask "why?" Why did you do this to me? Why do I have to be the one that suffers? Because I can't do this, I won't survive this. You did this, you made my life so painful, I have to neglect you to survive. No, not survive, whatever this is, you can't call it that. You took everything, everyone from me and then you took my faith too. I have nothing to hold on to, nothing to keep me sane. That's on you too.
But I guess I won't ever be able to say it to him because there is no him to me anymore.
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Depressing Stuff
PoetryIn the title, mostly me just venting about life... I write all of these if it's not mine I'll say so *spelling corrections coming soon
