Depressing Stuff

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I so so sick of laughing one second and crying the next. What did I do to deserve this? Because I know for a fact that I have never done anyone wrong, especially not as bad as the universe is doing me wrong. I have spent every second of every day with  a fake smile on my face and falseness in my laugh just so others don't ever feel the way I do. I've spent my entire life trying to live up to expectations that I know I will never meet just so others don't feel alone. I have such high expectations for myself and I have no idea why. Society has broken me, I have broken me and I'm so sick of it. I'm sick of it all and I'm done with it all. So please don't come to me begging for a smile on the one day I'm not strong enough to fake one. You have no idea how much it takes away from me just show up to school every day with a smile on my face and dry eyes. You have no idea what it takes to wake up in the morning when the only thing you want in life is to end it.