Depressing Stuff

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"Please don't kill yourself"

Honestly, sometimes I really want to. It just seems like the only way to take the pain away but I can't. I can't because of you. What you don't understand is you are the reason I am alive. You are literally the reason I wake up in the morning. Why can't you understand that I could never, I would never do that to you. I understand what it's like to lose someone you love, to blame yourself because you didn't see it sooner but I need you to know that I would never in a million years put you through that pain again. You are my home, you are what keeps me from falling in pieces every time I look in the mirror or think about something for too long. I can't believe that you would ever think I would do that to you, even when I feel like I should have never been born or when get out the blade, I would never do that because I know that you have been here for me, you have been here to pick me up when I fall and I know that one day you won't be strong enough to pick yourself up. I know that need to that person to pick you up because even with everything I've been through, with everything I put myself through I will never leave your side. I love you too much to leave you, especially like that.