*ON HOLD* Childhood (A Tiana kotlc Story)

Chapter 20:

WARNING: This chapter contains panic attacks.

Sam POV:

My stomach flipped and my chest felt heavy. I took deep breaths and tried to steady myself. I held on to my bed post for dear life. I could feel my body shaking.

It was happening again.

I stumbled out of the room, calling for my mom. After a few minutes she came walking into the hall, still wearing her apron.

"What's wrong hon-" She looked at my shaking and immediately knelt down beside me, realizing what was going on.

My chest was in pain, and I felt like I wasn't taking in enough air.

I gasped for air, clutching my moms arms for support.

"Take deep breaths, focus on my eyes and your breathing," My mom said soothingly.

I took in a few shaky breaths but the pain in my chest was still their, and my arms were still shaky.

"What can I do for you?" My mom asked.

"J-just stay," I managed. Sure enough, after awhile, my arms were less shaky and my breathing was more controlled.

"Are you okay honey? You haven't had a panic attack in awhile." My mom said, trying to meet my eyes.

"Y-yeah, just a lot going on."

My mom gave me a concerned look but she knew not to push it. She slowly stood up, watching me as she did so.

"You know that you can speak to me if you want to right?" My mom said. She gave me a smile that didn't reach her eyes.

"I know mom, thanks."

My mom quickly nodded and helped me get up from the floor. My head felt light, and I felt mildly sleepy but I mustered a (hopefully) reassuring smile to my mom and quietly shut the door to my room.

My room was a mess, clothing from yesterday night was scattered everywhere, and my bed was a mix of covers and comic books. I pushed some books off my bed and laid down, looking up at the white popcorn ceiling above me. I let in a shaky breath, feeling like their wasn't enough air in my lungs. I pulled out my phone for a distraction.

Biana POV:

I was extremely pissed off.

I had summed up the courage to tell Tam how I felt about him and he had completely zoned out and hadn't heard me. To make matters worse, I was getting millions of texts from distant friends and even strangers from our school who wanted to get the details from last night. A lot of them were asking weird questions.

I sighed, this wasn't going to end well.

My phone buzzed and I let out a string of colourful words that would definitely get me in trouble.

I looked down at my phone, seeing if the message was actually worth it.

It was from Keefe.

I sat up a little straighter in my bed, and opened up the message. I guess I hadn't checked the messages in a while because their was thousands of messages lined up after one another.

I scrolled up to the last message I had read and started reading:

Keefe: Hey Biana how r u?

Keefe: R u ok?

Keefe: Biana pls don't ignore me

11:45

Keefe: Hey Biana i've been thinking

Keefe: Your awesome but i don't think we belong with each other

Their was more but I turned off my phone before I could read more of it.

What is happening?

I mean, I thought we were over! Keefe went to the dance with Sophie so I just assumed that we had broken up and now he was with her. Now that I realized that I didn't really like Keefe as much more than a friend, I can cheer them on. I've got to admit, they are kinda cute together.

I smiled to myself and quickly read the rest of the messages that Keefe sent me. I typed my reply:

You: I understand, I hope it goes well w/ Sophie!

I felt satisfied with my response and turned off my phone, putting it on my bedside table. I laid down again, thinking about everything that was going on. The rumpled covers under me created a soft warmth that wasn't just outside me, but I could feel it inside me as well.

As much as my life isn't going how I though it would,

It sure is going great.

Hey everyone!

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