The Prince Bet

Making decisions.

       A hard sharp pain on my back woke me outta my sleep.

       "About time you woke up." Esmeralda said smiling down at me.

      It was too early for this. I groaned and turned around, my back towards her.

       "Gurl wake up. You know how betrayed I feel right now? You didn't even tell me you and Prince Daniel were getting this close. Your basically winning the bet at this rate."

        "No, no I'm not." I said sitting up. I was far from winning.

        "What do you mean?" She asked sitting down on the bed. "Do you guys...not like each other or something?"

         "No, it's not that we don't like each other. It's just in a friends only type of way, you get what I mean."

        "Ohh" Esme nodded. "Well, what did you guys talk about?"

        What should I say? I couldn't tell her because I promised Daniel I wouldn't, but I don't want to lie to Esmeralda either.

        "I can't say."

       "What? Why not?"

        "I promised him I wouldn't. Sorry honey."

        Esmeralda hummed. "Well what can I do. A promise is a promise. Though just because y'all are on the 'I promise' base, try not to replace anytime soon. I'm almost worried he'll take my place." Esmeralda put her hands on her heart and pretended to weep.

       I laughed. "No you not."

       She smiled. "You're right, I'm not. Can't find another one like me."

        "No, never."

       "Well, you should get up so you can get ready. You have the walk event today remember."

        Oh crabapples! I forgot. I quickly got up from my bed and headed to my bathroom. I turned on the shower and didn't even wait for it to warm up.

        I had to look very presentable today because of this event. It was where the royals  went onto the street to meet and greet citizens. Since Selvincia was the one hosting, my family had to go first. The country would be seeing the towns people first.

        Once I got out of the shower and got  ready, I stood in front of my mirror looking at myself.

       "Don't even think about it." Esmeralda said.

       I turned around. "Think about what?"

      "You'll look at yourself for so long then you'll spot something you think is wrong with yourself. You look amazing so don't psych yourself out."

       Sugar snaps. I do do that, don't I. "I don't do that..." I mumbled.

       After a couple of seconds, "Esme?"

       She looked up at me, "yes?"

       I hesitated before asking her this. Esmeralda is very smart. I'm scared she'll connect the dots. "What if you were romantically involved with someone that you weren't supposed to be involved with?"

       Esmeralda thought for a second, "Why should I not be involved with them?"

      "Well because...they would go completely against your goal." Kit would go completely against my goal of being queen. A goal I didn't even know if I still wanted or not.

      All throughout the night till I fell asleep I kept thinking. What would I do? I didn't have an answer for it and it worried me. I've only met Kit a hand full of times. I'm attracted to him, that I know...but it didn't feel like just that.

        Maybe I liked him, that could be it! But what after that? What was after like?

        Love? No, I don't love Kit. At least I think I don't. This is so frustrating.

        "Well then I guess I would have to see what is more important. If I couldn't have both that is. If it was my goal that benefited me greatly and it was something I'd been wanting for a long time, then I'd choose that. Sure it would be sad letting the person I'm seeing go, but in the end, I have to focus on the things I want for myself.

        "On the other hand, if I truly loved and valued the person I'm seeing, I'd pick them. Sure I'm not supposed to be with them, but nobody makes rules for myself except me. If I feel I truly have something with that person then I'm going to be with that person because I want to. The goal is not more important than them. Again, that is if I couldn't find some way to have both.

      "Why? Is there someone you can't be with?"

       I shook my head. I can't tell her. What would she think? What would anybody think? I'm not ready to face that. Daniel was right when he said that this isn't fairytale. One thing is for certain though.

       Maybe being queen isn't that important.