Where stars come from- Phan Discontinued Until Further Notice

Chapter 6- Dan

It was only that night i realized how much of a terrible mistake i had made. I know i could have helped the poor boy, but i couldn't... I already lost his trust, and i wouldn't be surprised if he will never forgive me. But i know he needs someone he could trust, but i don't think he is that flexible to regain his trust so fast. Why am i so stupid! I can't believe i did that, i can't take being so selfish about being bullied, i'm just as bad as Greg being so goddamn selfish!! I can't the pressure of being the popular prep everyone "wants to be like" NO ONE WILL EVER WANT TO BE LIKE ME! i'm a selfish asshole and i don't deserve to be looked up to as a role model. I don't know why they ever chose me as popular. I'm not worth it. I'm not worth their time.

I couldn't sleep at all that night.

I stayed up thinking about what i could have done to help.

What i could have done to not be a complete asshole

How i could have helped to not just stand there doing nothing

Why did they have to choose that poor kid to be a victim? Was he all that different from the rest of us? They wouldn't know. All i know is that one chick new him in a past year or whatever, but non of us know why she doesn't like him. Why do i care so much? Why do i want to save him more than any of the past victim? It might just be me but i do definitely feel like he is being more bullied and abused that the past victims. But still why him? Do i care all that much about the kid? I do feel like there is more going on than just school to the kid, like maybe family issues but i don't know. He was at that lake avoiding his family it seemed like, i don't even want to know why. I might just never know why i care about him so much though.

"DANIEL! Wake up sweetheart your late for school!" I heard my mum say turning on my light to wake me up. "Muuummmm.... I don't feel well, i have a reeeealllly bad headache. " "Aww dear... do you want to stay home?" She put her hand on my forehead seeing if it was abnormally hot, but it wasn't. "But dear you feel fine! Are you sure your ill?" "Mum i just have a awful headache. Please let me skip a day." "Allllright.... But please get some rest, no talking to your friends or anything since your 'oh so sick'" she teased. She left my room. I just wanted to get these thoughts out of my head. And for the next eight hours I lye on my bed thinking about what to do.

AN

Hello so sorry it's been a wile since updating! Happy summer! This chapter is quite short but it is quite important. Also I went on a school feald trip to a pool and got really really really super uper badly sun burnt and missed the last three days of school so... Also I started my new fanfic called lil' bit of punk lil bit of black, it is a punk dan and pastel phil fanfic I'm sort not coma I tried to write that but than realized I had no idea what to write! Whoops!