Where stars come from- Phan Discontinued Until Further Notice

Chapter 8 -Phil

I don't know if i should be happy that Dan wasn't at school for the past two or three days but i sure as hell was tortured. Greg or whatever his fucking name is was pretty much just beating me up for the past few days and tell you what, its not the best thing to feel. I simply feel broken. Lately i have been having these thoughts, the bad thoughts, what if i just end it? It would be that hard, it might be painful but thats what i want... thats what i deserve. All i have to do it put the blade up to the flesh of my wrists or or maybe hang myself. I don't know but its not like anyone would mind what i do. My father hates me, everyone at school hates me, apparently the boy i thought i really liked is just as bad as the rest. I started cutting again, my wrists are bloody everyday when i get home, and than i wash it off to just leave the scars to see everyday and remember how much of an ugly useless piece of shit i am.

I was pushed out of my thoughts by the sound of my father yelling at me from the living room. I walked out of my bed over to my dresser and quickly got dressed and put of my usual converse shoes and ran into the living room. My father was raging. I didn't take the chance to see what it was about so i bolted out of the house before he could catch me. I ran. I ran fast.

As i approached the school i instantly regretted it as bitch face approached me, not Dan, but the other bitch face. I just put my head down and ran away into the school. Which apparently wasn't the best decision as i ran right into someone and fell straight on my back flinging my stuff all over the floor and bashed my head against the floor.

"Oh jesus christ I'm so sorry!" "Its alright..." I sighed wile wincing and rubbing my head. But than i looked up and saw who i had just ran into, my eyes widened and i kind of started scooting back, it was Dan. I got u and ran into the bathroom and locked myself in a cubical. FUCK FUCK FUCK! No this cant be happening, hes going to kill me, hes going to tell his goddamn friends and their gonna kill me! I started to calm down once the bell rang and no one was in the toilets, my class was just around the corner if i can just slide out of the toilets and run down the hall into my class. So that exactly what i did. I got into the class but than i remembered i had to sit next to him. But something happened that surprised me... Nothing, nothing happened. He said nothing. He did nothing...

OKAY I KNOW GOD SHUT UP! I know its short but i tried. I will most likely not make them as long as i hoped, maybe 800 words per chapter for now on. WHOOPS, any way hope you enjoyed. ALSO GO READ LIL' BIT OF BLACK its really good so far, and its longer.