Be Mine Again

14

Few days later..

Jennifer's pov

I've been working from home. I can't stand to leave this house.

I'm slowly falling apart, little by little. I've been in bed for the last couple days. I don't even know when's the last time I ate or showered or even slept.

All I feel is numb. I can't stand to do anything. It's difficult to even live.

I want to call Leah, text her but she told me she needs space.

But I need her.

Tomorrows Sunday. Leah is gonna drop off Mariela. I'll shower and clean up my room before they get here to look presentable.

I close my laptop and push it away from me.

I grab my phone and go to Leah's contact under messages.

I stare at the keyboard, examining the letters, every single one. I make out the words In my head. Wanting to send them to her but I know she'll get mad.

I urge myself not to type. To stop myself from telling her everything for her to come back to me.

I want to ask why would she ever think of leaving me. Why would she ever need a break from me?

What is it that I made her need space?

Unexpectedly I see the bubble in the corner, indicating that she's typing. My heart skips a beat.

I wait for her to finish. I smile a little.

"What time do you want me to drop her off?"

Is all she said.

"Whatever is good with you, is fine for me."

I want to be in her best interest and let her know I could work on her terms if it means I will have her back.

"Ok, I'll drop her off around 12"

Even though I miss her like crazy, I miss my baby girl more. I want to hold her in my arms right now and kiss her forehead, tell her that everything will be okay. But I don't know if things will be.

"Okay, can't wait. See you then."

-

I'm sitting on the couch patiently waiting for Leah to show. It's exactly 11:59. I know she won't show exactly on time, but I'd like to think so.

I look out the window from the couch and stare at my empty driveway.

This house feels so much bigger without them. I mean its huge in general but it's bigger when you're all by yourself with nobody to cuddle with.

Few minutes go by and I see Leah pulling in. I get excited and stand up walking to the front door.

Before I walk there I stop in the mirror to see if I look good, or at least presentable.

Before I know it Mariela is walking in the house. But she's by herself.

I smile brightly when I see her. "Hey baby! I missed you so much." I said wrapping my arms around her tightly.

She hugs me back just as tight. "I missed you too." She says in my chest.

I pull away slightly and move the hair from her beautiful face.

"Where's mama?" I ask softly realizing she walked in by herself.

"She left." She said. "Already?" I ask.

"Yea she said she had a couple errands to run." She said.

I nod my head and kiss her head.

"How was it staying with mama?" I ask.