Wicked 🔞

Thirty-Two

⚠️ Trigger warning: mentions attempted suicide ⚠️

'I don't give a fuck, I am doing this with or without you! This is my fight too Tony!..'.. She slammed her hands down on the table, glaring at him.

'No! You may not remember, but I do, we all do. I found out that you tried to take your own life multiple times, you kept your depression a secret from us, and what happened before the battle..'... He saw the shock in her face... 'When you got taken, I know you didn't care about what would happen to you, it was just another situation where you tried to kill yourself, again!..'.. He didn't care that the others were there, she needed to know.

'I love you, you're like family to me Liv, we all love you. Do you think any of us would be here, if it wasn't for you? You saved each one of us, in some way or another, and I'll be damned if you put yourself in harm's way again. So help me, I will render you unconscious and put you in a cell if it means keeping you alive and safe!..'.. He tried to calm himself down, knowing his words were hurting her.

'You have no idea, what it's like for the rest of us, to find out you have been that low, doing what you did. The guilt I feel, they feel..'... He gestures to the others... 'Of knowing you were suffering, and we didn't do a fucking thing to see it, or to help you. It hurt so damn much, but it will hurt a million times more, if you actually died! You mean so much to us, so yeah, I'm keeping you out of this, you're grounded..'... He stormed out of the room, leaving her there with the others.

Tony knew he shouldn't have shouted at her, but he needed her to see reason, to keep her safe. She may not be family by blood, but she was family by love to them all. The others may have tried to hide it, when they found out about what she had tried to do, but he had eyes and ears everywhere in the compound. He had seen his team hide, breaking down in secret, so she wouldn't see.

He would find her after, right now, he needed to calm down, before he'd say anything else.

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Liv dropped into one of the chairs at the table, taking a shaky breath. That was something she hadn't expected, to find out that's what she had been through these last few years. She knew that she had tried to take her life, Bucky had told her everything, but for Tony to put it that clear, what her actions were doing to the others, she felt an enormous amount of guilt. She never wanted to hurt anyone, and that's exactly what she had been doing, and for the fact that Bucky had to carry it alone, the whole time.

'I uh, I'm sorry..'.. She sniffled, using her cuff to wipe her face... 'Im sorry I put you all through that..'

'Hey, no. Don't apologise Liv..'.. Nat came to one side, and Wanda the other. The rest of the team followed, and both Buck and Loki, sat across from her... 'You had every right to feel the way you did, and even if you couldn't feel you could tell us, you still had someone there for you..'

Livs eyes found Buckys, and he nodded at her... 'We know you Liv, we know why you didn't want us to know, you were protecting us..'.. Wanda said, taking her hand... 'All that matters, is that you're ok. I know it's been a lot since you woke up, but I promise, none of us want to see you hurt again, its our turn, to protect you..'

She took a deep breath, nodding... 'Just because I don't remember, doesn't mean I'm not sorry for putting you all through that..'.. She dropped her head into her hands... 'I think I need to take a break from all of this, just to clear my head..'

'Come home with me..'.. She turned to Clint frowning at him.

'Flattered, I mean, you are hot, but I'd have thought you and Nat were a thing..'.. She glanced to Nat, seeing her smirk... 'The way you two were during the battle, kinda gave me that vibe..'