Feel Your Rhythm || Minsung

25. Rolling in the Deep in Side Your Head

Scribbling on his note pad Jisung let his hand work on it's own. His handwriting was messy as the black gel pen hastily made scribbles on the clean ruled paper.

He tore the paper and and raised it so he can get a clear view of what he has written. Sunlight fell on the letters as Jisung squinted his eyes pouting. He kept the paper on the arm rest of the wooden chair and started modifying his verse.

He was only an step behind to finish his song. And he had gotten some dirty ideas to put in to it after his steamy night with Minho.

Jisung bit his lip, thinking about the way Minho made him feel. He loved when he is gentle and affectionate to Jisung. He loved it when Minho  would cuddle him and praise him. He felt wanted in a way. He knows Minho would go all cold and intimidating in college when they are not alone. The thought made him frown. He wished Minho was being affectionate every minute, not only when they are having a sexual encounter.

Jisung sighed, clipping his pen shut. He smiled looking at the white sheet of paper with his newly written song. He made his signature at the back side of it and folded it neatly and put it in his clear bag, making a mental note to meet with Chan.

That's when he notice the purple colour diary. He took it out and turned to the book marked page where he was left to write more entries.

He got a sudden urge to fill it. Taking his pen back, jisung pulled the cap off my his lip trying his best to do in beautiful handwriting. (It was effortless though, it always gets messy half the way.)

He started by simply writing the date.

Sunday

When I thought he couldn't be more perfect, but still was able to do it...

Jisung smiled to himself as he began writing a lengthy paragraph. Blsubing softly again remembering the way Minho took care of him. Minho had a body of a god an she just wanted run his hands on his chest and stomach. He bit his lip on the idea of having his over Minho's thigh.

Jisung shacked his head, realizing his imagination is taking him too far.

He finished writing and closed the book. Putting it in his drawer he stretched. It's almost past lunch and he hasn't eaten yet. He did feel hungry. Normally Felix would drag him out to eat but today he was back at his sister's house with Hyunjin.

I wonder what they are doing right now?

Then he recalled that his two roommates are in a secret relationship and probably doing couple stuff in the house. They were free finally could do anything they want.

But, he still can't believe Felix moved on so fast. While Chan is still hurting. Jisung knows Chan didn't mean to lie. But Felix was hurt and when he needed someone Hyunjin was there for him.

Knowing Felix, he is the one who easily gets attached.

What about himself? Jisung did get attached too. And it bad.

The rules included to not to catch feelings as this was only a sexual relationship. They are bed friends after all. Jisung wanted Minho to fuck him and he can't accuse Minho for using him because it was originally Jisung's idea.

Jisung didn't understand why his mind drifted to Minho when he desperately needed someone. He could have watched porn or ask Felx to explain him the things. Yet...he went to Minho.

And surprisingly, Minho agreed.

But why?

He sighed knowing he has to get rid if these feeling. Because right after the sing is submitted and Minho's work on the choreo is done, they are over. He almost felt afraid to give it ti Chan. He wanted or hide and never come out but he must to this. He needed to win YOLO.