Left Out Again | Jeongchan

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"Chan, please stop saying I'm pretty, I need to lose more weight to be pretty." "Jeongin stop! I can see your bones popping out through your skin everywhere your body is visible!"

"Just a little more Chan, I'm almost-" Jeongin spoke after looking his boyfriend in the eyes and backing away from the hug. "Dont say that!" The older male yelled causing his boyfriend to flinch and lower his head.

"That's nonsense if you think you need to loose more! I love you! I'm not going to love you any differently if you lose more but I'd prefer if you gained more! I've told you this already! So quit trying to lose so much more weight when it's not healthy for you!"

Chan continued yelling as tears rolled down his face, letting out a sob after he yelled. Jeongin kept his head down as he flinched from the yelling, scared of the tone of voice because of his ex boyfriend and now deceased father.

The younger boy would cover his head when his boyfriend would yell at him, expecting a beating. Just after Jeongin heard his boyfriend sob, he looked up to see the male covering his face as more tears made their way down his cheeks.

Jeongin was going to give him a hug but decided not to because his boyfriend was already mad at him and he was scared to get hit.

"Chan..... I'm sorry. I....." the pink and blue haired boy frowned to not let tears escape his eyes. "I don't mean to make you cry because of my stupid decisions. I've been telling you to get with someone less stressful but you wont."

"Please don't hit me. I know you really want to but please dont.... Or you can actually- I dont care at this point. The more I beg for it to not happen the more it does. Just hit me already Chan. I'm so fucking done with my life."

"I see why he would hit me so often." The blue and pink haired boy whispered to himself before there was a long silence. "I want to be skinny, no matter what way I do it. I know it's not healthy Chan, I just want to look and feel good in my body."

The younger boy admitted as he went to go hug his boyfriend. "I know you don't like it and I'm sorry" he apologized and the older hugged back.

"Innie, I'm never going to hit you. Please listen, I want you healthy so when we do get a child, they also want to be healthy and not think theres a specific way they have to look because of the way one of us looks. That's also why I'm staying healthy."

"You're beautiful, stop changing so much. I loved the way you looked before when you were healthy. I hate saying things like this. What you're doing to yourself is just to get to an unhealthy type of skinny." Chan spoke as he patted his boyfriend's head.

"Im sorry for yelling at you. I didn't mean to scare you. Now, let's go cuddle instead of crying our hearts out. Is that okay?" The older male chuckled making the younger nod and laugh "yeah. I'm sorry for this"

"Dont be. Let's go Prince" Chan said before kissing his boyfriend's forehead, dimple, and head.

"Are you alright? I yelled at you and noticed you were flinching a lot. I'm sorry about that. I wont yell again." Chan asked once they were laying on the couch.

"I'm fine, it's not the first time if happens so it's not a big deal. I was just a little scared but dont worry" Jeongin reassured.