Love Eyes ( PIP X DAMIEN ) || DIP

What im I doing?

                            Damien

        All of a sudden. I'm stuck in my bed.

    I feel heartbroken even though nothing had happened. I feel useless even though I know I mean the world to at least someone.

    I'm being sucked into my bed second by second with every tear that land on my pillow.
  I'm to lazy to even get up to drink a beer, so I'm drinking it in bed.

Me and Philip have been together the whole day but when ever he leaves I'm like this. Missing him.
I no longer smile for other reasons that aren't him and my child.
      They are the only reason why I'm happy.
They deserve it all, they love me and I love them.

I bring the bottle to my mouth and take a slow drink of beer.
I let out a loud sigh and stare until my dark, dark,dark,dark, ceiling.

I feel my body staring go sweat, I know I'm a demon, but I still get sometimes hot.
My blood is boiling with anger, because I cannot be with Philip. Just thinking about it makes me angrier.

"Ugh, how about I just go see him? I saw him a couple of hours ago but I miss him already.
I don't care."

I get up from my bed and walk to my door, when I'm about to open my door I start having second thoughts.

    He probably is having a fun time with Pocket right now. I'm ruining their relationship. I'm a monster, I'm evil, but I don't want to be a monster.
     I don't know why I'm still waiting even though he is much happier with him. I think.

    I want to continue my life with Estella And raise our child together as friends but I know deep down I'll still be waiting for someone that won't arrive.

I take a loud sigh and exit the door to my bedroom, then I make my way to the front door.

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Pip

He couldn't possibly understand me! He's such a moron! He's using me!
This whole entire time I thought he love me but it was all a lie. That idiot!
I hate him! I hate Damien!

The thing I hate the most about Damien is I can't even say his name without getting shy even though I know all the things he has done to me.
I want to forget him and wait for him, I don't know which is better so I'm some how stuck with doing both.

I remember the day Damien gave me that ring, I remember how happy i was reading the letter, and wanting to wear the ring everywhere I went.
But now it's gone.
The packaging is deep into my closet hidden away so Pocket couldn't read the letter.
Now that I think of it, it was actually letters. There were 2 more.  And I only read one of them.

Normally I would run straight to my closet and try to find them but now I'm trying to forget about him so I'm just minding my own business while Pocket takes a shower.

I'm watching my favorite tv show which is The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon.
I wonder what it must feel like to be a mortal again.
I mean being on earth, just being humans, and not angels or demons or anything, just humans.
Well and animals, but we have animals here so it's nothing special.
I remember when I was living, I watched this show on the display TVs outside shops.
It became my favorite show because I always wanted a friend like Jimmy. A nice and caring person, I finally have that, and it made me realize that even though it looks fun in reality it's stressful.

Love shouldn't be difficult, but unfortunately for me it is.

I lean forward to grab my tea cup but I hear a knock on the door.
As I'm walking to the door I take another glance at the television and notice that Jimmy, too is opening a door.