Love Eyes ( PIP X DAMIEN ) || DIP

Love eyes.

Damien

On my way home i feel my whole face covered in tears. They won't stop coming out. I'm heartbroken. I knew this day was going to come but I didn't want it to be so early.

Out of 8 billion hearts, I fell for a heart that no longer beats for me.

I'm running to my house while my tears keep spilling, I can feel them running down my neck making it's way under my shirt .
As I'm running I try wiping some tears away to make my vision more clearer but it's still so blurry.
My mind is shutting off because of how much my heart is hurting right now.
I try to hide my sobs quietly as I'm running in the middle of a neighborhood, but I just can't.
It got to the point were my knees had collapsed in front of a house and I started balling, I couldn't hear the world outside of my head. All I can hear were the noises I was making whining in pain.
All I can see is blurriness from my tears, I can't see anything. I cant feel anything as well.

When I finally reach the front porch the guards take no time to let me in and I rush to Estella's room.
I know it will be shitty for me to come running and crying to her about my problems if I know being pregnant is already hard enough for her but I don't care.

I barge into her room and I see her sitting near her vanity doing her makeup. It's currently 12am, why do girls do their makeup just for the fun of it?
Isn't that just wasteful?

Her head quickly turns my direction as she's applying on blush and her face turns into anger.
"What in the devil are you doing?"

Estella gets up from her chair and walks up to me, covering her breast that are noticeable because she's wearing a tank top with her arms, as if I had never seen them before.

"We are leaving." I say without trying to let out any emotions, even though I know my face is probably red right now from all of my crying.
Her face turns from anger to confusion.

"What the hell do you mean?"

"Pack your shit, we are moving back to hell" I point to all over her bedroom and I walk out and close the door to her room. And that's when I hear a "WHAT THE FUCK DAMIEN?!"

I hate that I'm making her angry, I'm no doctor but what if that's bad for the baby?

     "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?! WE AGREED WE ARE STAYING HERE, IN HEAVEN, IM NOT GOING BACK UNTIL THIS CHILD IS BORN!"
      Estella opens her door and points at her stomach and my eyes go to her stomach as well.

      I feel a lump in my throat, you know that feeling when ever you want you want to cry but you can't? And it feels like your throat is being stabbed with knifes but in reality it's your heart being stabbed because of how heartbroken you are?
     That's what I feel right now. A big fat lump in my throat that hurts like hell because I'm in pain.

     For a second I feel a tear escape my eye, and that's when I pull my arm out to wipe it away.
    I can't believe I'm doing this. But it shouldn't matter. Nobody I love wants me to stay here in heaven anyway, the only person who loved me was Philip, and now I lost that.
     I wrote letters to him, I cared for him, I did everything he asked for. He made me realize i was finally in love with someone.

When ever I wrote those letters, i felt the exact same way I feel right now.
                    Hopeless and regretful.

   I can't believe I was so stupid! To think he would ever realize we were meant to be.
   I waited there like an idiot when Philip wasn't even waiting for me.
   I'm so stupid. And you know why hurts fucking more?!
    That I know when I go to sleep tonight I'm going to be crying a whole ocean because unfortunately I'll still be waiting for him. I'll always will be waiting for him. For the day he can truly know I'm the one.
   It probably won't happened though, I've lost, I've lost the "battle" to Philips heart to Pocket who didn't even the "battle" ever existed.
                                    I lost.