Alternative Meeting (Mattholomule x Gus)

Tears (Chapter 7)

This part will be in Matt's pov, ALSO THERES A REFERENCE OF A COMIC I FOUND TOWARDS THE END OF THIS CHAPTER BTW!! AND there's going to be angst in this chapter (my favorite)

Matt's POV:
As I was walking to an empty classroom that I could sleep in, my heart started beating faster. I finally found Augustus, and now what do I do? There's no way I could ever tell him how I feel. What if he rejects me? Or even worse, laughs at me. My heart sank at that thought. I opened the door to the almost empty classroom, no other witches thankfully. I laid down on the cold floor.

It was very uncomfortable but what else could I do? For some reason I started thinking about how it would feel if I laid my head down on Augustus. It would definitely be softer, maybe he could stroke my hair and whisper to me on how much he loves me. I cut myself off and I realized what I was thinking. My face heated up and even without looking at it, I knew it was red.

He doesn't like me back, why won't that register? But, I don't fully know that. What if he does like me? You know what, I'm gonna tell him soon. Even if it could make things awkward or maybe even ruin what we have going on. I started rethinking my choices, maybe I just need to go to sleep? Suddenly, I rolled over on my side and took off my cape. My arms wrapped around it and I started thinking it was Augustus. Even though it feels so wrong, it's what I had to do for the time being. Well, I didn't have to do it. I just.. wanted to?

I groaned into my cape, covering my face with it. I'm disappointed in myself and I think Steve would be as well. Speaking of Steve, where is he. I want him back, I need him right now. What's going on is confusing and scary. Am I gay? My eyes started to form tears in them, why am I being so dramatic today? "Titan, someone help me." I mumbled to myself. There's something wrong with me, maybe I need to go talk to Jerbo or Skara. Though Skara doesn't even know what's going on with her relationship. Jerbo is definitely the best choice, though can't Barkus read my palm or something? He could tell me what to do.

Once again, I groaned. I'm frustrated and I don't know what to do. I closed my eyes and hoped that in the morning everything would be okay.

Time Skip to the morning

My eyes fluttered open, the light was shining into them and my pupils got smaller. Someone was having a conversation with what sounds like three other people. I sat up and yawned, usually I'm not one to spy on others but I heard my name get mentioned. I quickly shuffled over to the door and put my ear against it. What are those twerps saying about me. "I need you to stop spying on me and Matt, can't I just get alone time with my.. friend?" A familiar voice said. Augustus? I cant listen to this conversation any longer, though for some reason my head won't pull away. "You mean, boyfriend?" One of his friends responded which im assuming is Luz. BOYFRIEND? I felt blood rushing to my face leaving it a bright red.

"Once again, he's not my boyfriend and im 99.9% sure that he doesn't like me.", but I do like him. I love him, I just don't know how to say that yet. "Well why don't you ask?" Another voice questioned which sounded like the Blight's youngest daughter. "Well I don't like him, he's just a friend." The illusionist responded. My heart dropped hearing those words. "Sure, If you say so." Plant girl mumbled.

I stood up sighing, suddenly, I opened the door and all four of the teenagers turned their heads towards me. I rubbed my eyes trying not to let out a yawn but failed. "what?" I said once I finished yawning. Augustus's face was a bright red for some reason, "are you alright?" My focus went towards him. "Do you have the mold?" I went on and started asking questions. "Oh! I'm fine." He responded flapping his right hand while his other hand is rubbing the back of his neck. My eyebrow went up and I slightly tilted my head not believing what he said but whatever.

"Uh, anyways, do you want to come with me to get food from the cafeteria?" I asked trying to avoid things becoming awkward. "The food isn't the best but it's all we have." I added. The illusionist shook his head, I felt a bit sad because I wanted to hang out with him but it's fine. "I'm sorry, though do you want to hang out later?" Augustus responded noticing that I looked a bit gloomy. My face lit up, how embarrassing. "Of course, we can meet up in this classroom. There's barely anyone that enters it.". He nodded. Finally.

Out of no where my mind instantly went back to replaying his words from a few minutes ago. "Well I don't like him, he's just a friend." "I'm.. gonna go." I speed walked away trying to make sure he doesn't see me crying. It was embarrassing yesterday, why'd I cry in front of him. His first day back and he already has to put up with me and my emotions. Titan, Matt, why can't you just do better. Not caring to look up from the ground, I bumped into someone. Tears were forming into my eyes, one slipped out on accident.

I looked up to see Skara, I instantly wiped away my tear. "Matt? Are you ok? Do you need to talk about it..?" She asked. "No, I'm fine, I'm Man Tholomule. I can handle this." I walked over to the wall and sat against it. A few seconds later I slid down it, we were in a hallway that usually had no one in it. "Just because you want to be more manly or mature doesn't mean that you can't show emotions." She attempted to comfort me. "Sometimes you just need to let it out" Skara went on.

"I just don't want anyone to hear me. It's embarrassing." I looked down the empty hallway. I heard people in the door next to us though. Skara smiled and twirled her finger around causing her to summon her harp. She started playing a melody that couldn't help but calm me down a bit. "Go on, no one can hear you over this.". I looked at her, she's an amazing person. Tears started falling down my cheeks. I wrapped my arms around my legs and dug my head into my knees. I couldn't stop crying.

My eyes were really puffy and Skara kept on playing. I felt bad having to drag her into this, we weren't very close but she's doing this for me.

10 minutes later

I finally stopped crying, thanks to Skara's advice I feel so much better. The melody stopped playing as soon as Skara realized that I wasn't crying anymore. I wrapped my arms around her pulling her into a hug. "Thank you." I managed to get words out of my mouth. "You're welcome." She responded hugging me back.

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