Forgive me Father, for I have sinned || Destiel - Demon!Dean & Priest!Castiel

Chapter Eleven - Doctor Doctor

Cas (POV)

"Are you still having the dreams?" The doctor asks and i nod my head.

"Going back to the church made them even worse then before. But they're different now. It's like i am having flashbacks to a time of war between angels and demons. I keep seeing the fiery sword of Michael and the golden wings of Gabriel while they fight Lucifer down to earth."

The doctor nods his head and i fidget in the seat, biting the inside of my mouth. "May i leave now? I have a lot of work to get done." I say and the doctor looks at me for a moment sternly but finally nodding his head. I get up and smooth myself down before nodding and smiling at the doctor and finally leaving the room.

Once back at the church, I put my bag down and click my stiff neck into place. Some people were sat down on the benches, only praying to themselves quietly so I tried not to disturb them by stepping into my study and flopping down onto the seat, groaning loudly. The walls were thick and soundproof in this room for some reason, I never really got to know why, so thankfully I could be as loud as I wanted to be.

A few hours of me sitting by myself inside the study, over-thinking and giving myself a headache, I looked at my watch and my eyes widened in shock. I couldn't believe it, I had been in my study for a full 3 hours and hadn't even moved or fidgeted the whole time but only stared blankly into space for a full three hours.

I get up and walk out of my study to find an empty church before me. I shut the door silently and walk towards the alter where my notes and bible was and stood reading through them in my head, trying to memorise them as much as i possibly could.

Suddenly I heard the church door open and instantly felt a chill running down my spine which gave me goosebumps on my skin. I looked up from my papers to see Dean walking towards me, lighting up a cigarette on the way down the aisle.

"Hello sunshine." He grins, stopping at the bottom of the low stares and grinning up at me.

"Dean." I reply coldly, staring back down at him. He whistles and snorts in amusement.

"What's up your ass all of a sudden? I don't remember putting a vibrator up there." He jokes and i grit my teeth together and sigh. "I'm joking! Have you been wondering where i've been?"

"More like hoping you wouldn't turn up again." I murmured to myself but Dean heard and scowled at me.

"Rude. Anyway, i've been chasing up the King of Hell about the book that you so graciously tried to use to send my ass to the pit but he's hidden it somewhere." Dean sniffed before shrugging. "Never mind, he won't let anyone have it anyway because if they do the spell, it doesn't just mean my ass will be going down but his too. I'm sure he will keep it safe but you can never rely on Crowley for anything."

"Dean, I didn't mean to try and send you to-"

"Yes you did." He snapped at me and I gulped and looked down at my hands. He walked up the stairs towards me and grabbed hold of my cheeks with one hand, squeezing them tightly and made me look at him. "You wanted to send me to a place worse then hell because you can't cope with the fact that you're meant to be religious and you secretly love taking it up your ass. You hate the fact that you love a man touching you because it's new and exciting and you know your mother would hate it. And you especially love the fact that you're doing this with a demon because it's giving you a freakish thrill that turns you on every time you think about it."

I look at him in pure horror and shock, unable to think of anything to say while he just keeps staring at me with a grimace appearing on his lips. I try to shake my head but his hand is keeping my head in place so all i can do is stare.