Just A Home Wrecker To You

Fuck My Life

If I wear a crop top and skirt I'm a slut. If I wear a over sized hoodie and sweatpants I'm not pretty enough. If I don't wear makeup I'm too tired and ugly. If I do I'm trying to hard and asking for it.  I never understood the world's perspective not even when I turned 14. Not even when I started getting called ugly and 'pimple face'. Not when I started wearing makeup and got clear skin and got called out for trying to hard. And especially when I started getting called a slut and whore when I turned 9.
                       I wonder if people would see me differently one day, but it never happens. Ever since that one rumor. My life has been ruined.  Everyone thinks I'm a whore and it has always been that way. Until I met him.

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I was scrolling on my phone dreading to get up for school. I hated going to school, I always have. Everyone hates me there, I have no friends, not even the teachers like me.

I am broken out of my thoughts when my mom bursts through my door. " get up, your going to be late for school." She never did understand me, she thought the same as everyone else did. "Ok fine, I will get up in a sec." I hate when she thinks I don't know what she talks about with my grandma on the phone.  My grandma is the only one who understands me truly, she sees me for me. I love her with my whole heart, I usually go to her house after school just because I could talk to her for hours and she listens.

I get out of bed and get ready. I choose to wear black leggings with a oversized hoodie, my natural hair and highlighter and mascara. Just so I'm not trying so hard or so I'm not ugly. I make sure that I don't try so hard so I'm not 'asking for it'. I then go to the bathroom and brush my hair and teeth, then go downstairs and run into my mom.

"Get to school before your late, and I swear if your late." She always threatened me, it was kind of her love language. Except without the love. "I won't be late, it's 6:30, school starts at 8:00." I know it isn't smart to snap at her just because I don't know what she's capable of. " snap back at me again and see what happens, you'll be on the streets before long if you keep that attitude up." She snapped back. "Yes mother, clear as day." I was obviously being sarcastic, but she doesn't need to know that.

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While I got out of my car there was a gang of girls in a Gray Convertible that I'm not going to lie,was hideous. "Hey slut face!"  Yep that's what most people call me.