I hate you...

Chapter 4

Max Steller

I watch his face mutate into a look of extreme disgust as he leaves the room in a panic. Instantly that feeling hits me. Something inside of me dropped and it splashed inside a pool of sorrow. Here comes the tsunami.

Fuck.

I'm so dumb. I'm so stupid. Why can't I just be normal. I hate you... no I hate me.

Did I really make him hate me that much?

I didn't mean for it to be like this. I was hoping that going here I would see him, but not like this. I was hoping that I could fill the canyon between us. I wanted to bump into him on the way to class, or maybe see him during track practice. I wanted to be around him at a distance, and slowly close in. I wanted to phase back into a positive relationship with him. I thought it was possible... I mean it's been almost 4 years since that silly rivalry started, but the look on his face tells me I wasn't near close to reality.

The sound of my tears hitting the wooden tiles pulls me back to reality.

Stop being a baby.

I honestly don't care that much, why am I crying. I need to show him that I'm over what happened between us, and maybe he'll get over it too.

I walk to the window where I can see him shouting at his phone.

Whatever, he needs to grow up.

I start to unpack my things and set up my room. I stop when I see the picture of us.

We look so little here, so innocent, so happy. His rosey cheeks and deep dimples go so well with his dark curls. This picture always puts a smile on my face, but I can't let him see it. Not now at least.

I set up the frame so that you aren't able to see the picture from my door and continue to unpack.

...

Over half an hour passes before I hear a knock on my wall.

"Hey"

I turn to see him in my doorway with a weak smile on his face.

I wish my smile was that pretty.

"Hey," I say gently

"I'm sorry about that before... I was just a little shocked, that's all."

"Yeah. I could tell." I say with an almost bitter tone

He seems to notice because his smile starts to turn into more of a frown. Why am I being so rude? I'm supposed to be the one trying to get him to feel comfortable.

"Um... it's not that I didn't... I just. I just expected that Kalani would tell me that her boyfriend was going to the same school as me. That's all."

I can see his brows start to furrow the way that they do when he tries to hide his distaste in something.

"She didn't tell you?" I reply with genuinely

"No, she didn't."

"Oh, well here I am,"

The look on his face falters for a moment.

"Yeah, I see," he says with what I thought was a small laugh.

...

Aiden White

"Oh, well here I am," he says with that smirk