Billie Eilish Imagines | my love

🍬tics

Finneas's POV

After Y/N falls asleep, I hear whimpering from my room

I walk to my room, and see billie with her knees to her chest, and she's ticcing bad. Shes sobbing trying to stop.

"Billie you're gonna get through this, just a few more minutes, okay?"
"I-it hur- hurts" She blurts out in between choked sobs

"I know Bils, can you hug me?"
She hugs me lightly, her neck jerks violently, hitting my shoulder

"I'm so so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you I'm really sor-"
"Kiddo it's all good, I know you'd never try to hurt me"
She continues to tic for about a minute before saying "a-are you o-ok?"

"Billie you care way to much about other people, you're gonna be alright. You know how this goes, it's going to end soon."
"I'm s-sorry you have to deal with th-this"
"Thats what I'm here for. Don't blame yourself for something you can't control."

She started hitting at her throat
I put my arm out in-front of her so that she wouldn't be hitting herself

I noticed bruising on her neck from what I assume to be previous tic attacks. The poor girl has to go through this on a daily.

"Do you want y/n?"
She shakes her head
"I-I don't want her to s-see me like th-this"
"She won't judge you"
"P-please n-no"
"Sorry Bil, can I do anything for you?"
"I- I don't know- Just be h-here"
"Alright"

An hour later

Billie is still ticcing and it's just getting worse and more violent. Y/N walks in

"F-Finneas-" she whispered, shakily
Her whole body was shaking

I pulled her head into my chest and I rubbed her back

"Billie, Are you okay?"
Y/N asks
"Not right now, y/n."
Y/N leaves
"Bils it's gonna be okay."
She just cries harder
"Where's the essential oils that you use?"

"I-in my c-closet"
"I'll be right back"

Billie's POV

He leaves the room

I continue having tics and I didn't realize how much him being here was helping because next thing I knew I'd made a hole in my wall

I look down and see blood trickling down my arm, my knuckles are white.

Finneas comes back and rushes to me, holding my hand up
"Billie are you okay? What happened?"
I flicker my eyes to the hole
"Alright, I'll fix it later, ok? Lets get your hand wrapped."
He hands me the oil bottle, and grabs a bandage roll.

While he wraps my hand I continue ticcing
Why do I have to be like this? Can't I be normal? This extremely rare thing had to happen to me? Im hurting other people and causing destruction and I feel like I can't even control my own body.

After a few minutes, my tics start calming down.
"I-I'm really sorry about the wall thing-"
"It's all good, we have the stuff to fix it. Try to get some sleep, alright? I'll stay in here."

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I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO END THIS CHAPTER BUT YEAH 👍👍