Billie Eilish Imagines | my love

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im like actually gonna kill myself if this happens

my brother has all the covid symptoms and we're waiting for the test results rn but if he has it my parents are gonna pull me out of dance i cant do that shit again thats the only thing that i look forward too i literally go on my phone all day waiting for it to be time to go to the studio and then when its over i go home and sleep and wake up and try to get the day over so it can be time to go like i fucking live there. Im there 5 hours a day almost every day and every single friend i have is there because my ass is homeschooled and not allowed to leave the house so everyone i know is there and my teachers there are like second parents to me they're the only ones who know i cut and they where so supportive of me and i actually was clean for a couple months because of them and everyone there is so so nice and dance is how i express myself like i cant do it any other way and my dad said if my hrother has it he's pulling me out until he doesnt have it anymore.

He'd have it for like 2 weeks i think thats how long covid lasts

But when you're doing competetive team class all week for several hours a day and exersising that much and especially for acro, if you take even 2 days off you lose a lot of it. You lose your turns, your backbend, your leg holds/extensions, because you cant just go from working out for 5-7 hours straight to doing nothing for an entire day. I do workout at home but last time my brother had covid we all where locked in our rooms and ordered food that was mostly really unhealthy. My room is small asf and not nearly enough room to do anything in.

anyways so thats whatz going on w me hbu guys