Disasters of Brazil

Chapter 16

Girls

"Of course Matt will pass into that varsity! halata naman din."

I was clicking my pen as me, Carlin, Andi and Nadia are planning for a class party tomorrow. It was just a normal party. Everyone of us deserves to enjoy and relax. This school year has been driving me nuts as hell.

"Hindi pa nga natin sila naiinform." Andi says. "Alam ba nila na magpapaparty tayo?" she asks.

"Let's inform them, sagot ko naman lahat." Nadia says while curling her hair. 

"Seryoso?" Carlin's jaw dropped in disbelief.

"Sinabi ko na kanina ah?" her eyes furrowed. "Rich things," Nadia hissed.

"Ang tanong, papayag ba ang lahat?" I ask. "Baka mamaya, plano plano tayo rito, wala naman nagsipunta?" I chuckle.

"Ay subukan lang nila, libre na nga, 'di pa pupunta!" Nadia complained. "Stupid picky bitches!"

"Ugh!" Andi moaned seductively. Everyone of us looked at her but we didn't manage to give her attention. It's her HPD (histrionic personality disorder) again. She laughed after. 

"Holy-" Carlin, covers her mouth as she was about to take a sip on her Iced caramel macchiato. "Jesus Christ!" she shakes her head. 

"That was just inappropriate girl!" Nadia bit her lower lip. "Stop it!"

"Sorry, I need attention." Andi says. 

"You don't need them." Carlin shrugs.

I lost spending time with Matt for the past days. He was being busy with his varsity things and I didn't bother to disturb him. Hindi niya rin naman ako china-chat. I won't chat him too. My pride is higher than his. 

I'm craving for his attention. I miss his smile, his "yallo". Just......ugh it sucks!

I think I'm enjoying with my circle of friends. Which are girls.  I also didn't expect that they will be my friends. Especially Nadia and Andi. We didn't match vibes at first and some misunderstandings happen but we managed to fix those.

Pinasa ko muna kay Carlin ang paglilista for the party dahil nasisiraan na ako nang ulo rito. I miss Matt. We haven't talk ever since. I'm so petty, wala naman kami pero ganito ako.

I opened my Instagram as break and browsed over bunch of stories and reels. My eyes widened when I saw the story of ate Zam with Matt. They're playing badminton together then nakayakap pa si ate Zam kay Matt.

W-what the?

Shouldn't she be with my brother instead of Matt? I barely see her being with my brother. My brother likes ate Zam so much but what she's doing will definitely hurt my brother. 

"Girls, I need to go, urgent lang." I clutch my shoulder bag and stood up. Everyone of them was confused of my behavior.

"W-wait!" Carlin stopped me but I left them already. 

When I went home, I saw my brother watching TV. I didn't hesitate but to tell him what I saw.

"You've seen the story of ate Zam?" I ask, getting irritated already. Kahit naman walang malisya sa ginagawa nila, she still has the tendency to hurt my brother. Not everyone has the same ideas or mindset. Plus my brother can also get the wrong idea. 

"Wala naman siyang story." My brother says. "Bakit?"

"What?" I say, making my reaction unbelievable. "She storied-" I lost my words when I realized something.

What if she's hiding it to my brother then she'll play with my brother then?

I don't care, I'm petty but I'm also mad with Matt. Hindi na kami nag-uusap kasi magiging busy daw siya sa varsity then here I'm, witnessing him playing with ate Zam. The worst is, nakayakap pa siya kay Matt? What the hell!

I've been bad mood the entire day. The party was cancelled because I refused to give ideas and sinabi ko rin sa girls na i-cancel muna. I'm overthinking things. I don't know how to handle them. It's bothering me, it's crazy as fuck.

When the next day came, I wasn't in the mood to talk to anybody. I was sitting at my chair with my legs crossed. I rested my face on my arm-rest. Why do I feel so affected. It's just a hug.

Yeah, a hug.

Hug,
hug,
hug,

why is she hugging him?

Ugh! so annoying!

Ma'am Briela caught me with my attitude. She called me out at pinatayo sa klase. "Ano Roberta? tutulog tulog ka sa klase ko? ano 'to sleeping class?" pagtataray ni Ma'am.

"Hindi po ako natutulog, nahihilo lang po." I made up an excuse.

"Oh clinic ba 'to para dito ka magpahinga?" she asked sarcastically while crossing her arms. "Pumunta ka sa clinic, hindi ka gagaling dito. I'm a teacher, not a nurse." diin niyang sabi at pinalabas ako.

I scratch my head and step outside the room. Sinundan ako ni Matt but I didn't bother to make pansin sakaniya. Bakit ko siya papansinin? 

"Yallo," he greeted.

"Bumalik kanga do'n," I say, irritatingly. "May klase pa."

"Samahan kita," he says.

"No," I shake my head.

"Yes," makulit niyang sabi.

"Bakit ba?" Iritado kong sabi.

"Hmmm?" he sounded confuse.

"Nahihilo na nga 'yong tao ang kulit kulit mo pa!" I couldn't help but raise my voice at him. He ended up making a sad face along with a defeated reaction kaya bumalik nalang siya sa room. 

Nang makapunta na ako sa clinic, humingi ako nang white flower na ilalagay sa cotton. Pinagpahinga ako sa higaan. Hindi naman talaga ako nahihilo, naiinis lang. Ate Zam is probably playing with my Brother's feelings. 

I open my phone and my friends are sending me messages.

Carlin: Girl ano ginawa mo kay Matt? bakit malungkot 'to?

Andi: TRUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Nadia: Nakayuko lang tapos malungkot.

My eyes furrowed with their messages. I typed a message and hesitated to send but I ended up sending it.

Me: Napagtaasan ko ng boses si Matt sa hilo ko pero bakit siya malungkot?

Nadia: Iyon naman pala girl! 

Carlin: Nako naliungkot yata at nasigawan mo HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Nadia: Ano ba kasi nangyari sa'yo? kahapon bigla kana lang nawala.

Andi: KAYA NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Carlin: Sa true, bakit nga ba?

I didn't want to tell them my speculations. Baka kasi magsabi nila na assuming lang ako or what. I just made up an excuse again why I left yesterday.

Me: Lumipad daw kasi yung panty at bra ko sa kapitbahay.

Andi: GIRL WHAT????

Nadia: HUH????

Carlin: Ano daw?????

Me: Basta yon nalang, basta hayaan niyo na. Nahihilo na ako, magpapahinga pa ako. Bye.

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