Disasters of Brazil

Chapter 20

Pieces

Trigger Warning: Self harm, depression, anxiety, attempted suicide.

Note: This chapter is not for everyone. Do not read if you have triggers as stated above. This chapter may not be suitable for everyone. 

"Why are you searching about OCD?" Grandma pressed her palms on her forehead as she shows her frustrations.

"Is that an issue?" I asked with full respect. "I'm just curious about the management and treatment of OCD." I say.

"And why is that?"

"Huh?" I ask in confusion.

"Why do you need to search it? as if you'll understand it!" she snapped.

What the hell is she saying? Bakit parang masama pa na nagsesearch ako? Second, she's a Psychiatrist. As far as I know, Psychiatrists should be more understanding and calm. She's aggressive as hell! Ever since that hospital scandal, she changed already or maybe she was since the start of everything.

I went to my room and read some books that I bought from Fully Booked. My head is rotating like a planet and I'm not really at my best condition this day. Matt has been messaging me but I didn't reply at all. 

I also have my first day of my period and my mood swings are just severe. I wanted to shout at everyone. Sobrang sakit nang puson ko. Parang iniipit at parang sasabog na sa sobrang sakit. 

"Ugh!" I groaned while caressing my puson. "Sakit god!" I roll my eyes.

Matt: Yallo :)

Matt: Laro

Matt: ML

Matt: Ako core hehe

Matt: awit

Matt: Is everything okay?

Matt: Roberta

Naghawi ako nang buhok ko sa sobrang inis at ang lala nang sakit na nararamdaman ko. I went downstairs to look for a pain killer. Ibuprofen but there was no stock at all. What kind of house is this?

"Kuya!" I shouted, calling for his name.

"What?!" He answered back from his room.

"I'm experiencing the worst period cramps ever and we don't have painkillers! I'm gonna die already!" Iritableng pagkasabi ko. Hindi ko na talaga kinakaya at mas lumalala ang sakit. Gusto ko rin magdabog at magwala nang mga gamit dito dahil sa inis ko. 

"Fucking hell!" I muttered a curse.

I grabbed our hot compress and boiled some hot water. When the light turned off on the heater, I poured the hot water inside the hot compress pack. Napapikit ako nang mariin dahil sa sakit. 

I went at the living room and layed my body down on the couch. Nilagay ko sa may bandang puson area ang hot compress at gumiling giling na parang uod sa sobrang sakit. "Ugh! ugh!" I groan.

"Are you doing the m thing?" my brother said in shock while walking downstairs.

Halos mabato ko ang hot-compress sakaniya. I read the room. I know what he was trying to say. The "m" word. "Damn you!" ni middle finger ko siya.

"I was asking seriously," he chuckled. "Do it in the bathroom sis," he snapped then walked towards the kitchen.

"Horny bitch," I roll my eyes. 

While I was watching the TV, I got a message from Carlin. I grab my phone then turned on the power button. Nang bumukas iyon, halos malaglag ang panga ko sa message ni Carlin.