Too Many Mistakes (J.G) Book 2

Chapters 16

All I remember was getting home from a rough night. I then saw black. Nothing seemed to be right. Nothing has been going right for me after I graduated high school. I thought that would be the end of all the problems I had. All the people I use to hurt, started to hurt me after I lost everything. The only thing that stopped them from hurting me was Jack. He protected me the most he could. Some kids really hated me, and I see why. I hate myself too.

I knew that what I use to do was a terrible thing, but I couldn't help myself. Being the 'bad girl' made people stay away. That's what I'm good at. Keeping everything to myself and not telling anybody if anything is wrong.

When Ashley came back I felt so relieved. I always trusted her. When we went to our spot to get drunk/high it was a celebration for not being pregnant. I remembered that because of those pills my period could have been delayed. And it was.

Now I was sitting in complete darkness. It was silent until a voice broke it.

"Oh my god." It was a male's voice. I couldn't tell who's it was but it was familiar. "How could I let this happen to you? I'm suppose to protect you. You're my little sister." Nate! Oh my god it's so good hear your voice! But what happened? Why did I need protecting? "I can't believe he did this to you." Who? Who did this to me? Nate tell me! "Why did you feel like you needed to get somewhat drunk? You're better than that. You didn't have to do that. I just want you to know that if...when you pull through this that I'm going to move back down here to make sure you're okay." He says. No! You can't leave LA where your whole life is just to protect me. "Please come back. You're the only thing I really care about. I love you." He says as his voice gets weak. "When I found out that I was going to be an uncle I was so excited. Then Nash got angry, you ran away. Everything went down hill. I would have done anything to make sure that the kid had the best life ever. I didn't want him to suffer like you did. I'm so sorry for leaving earlier then I said. I know we said we would move out to LA together, but Sam and I got into something amazing. I'm such a terrible brother. I'm sorry." He says then his voice is gone. He wasn't a bad brother. He treated me very well. Nothing else mattered to me when we were hanging out. All my worries went away. He was my best friend when I had none. I had no friends until I had the fake ones in high school.

"Hey. I'm so sorry I left you at the party alone. I feel like this is all my fault." Oh god Ashley. You did nothing wrong. It was all me. "When I found out that you and Blake fucked I was shocked. I knew how vulnerable you were and I just left you. God I'm so sorry. You deserve better people in your life." She says and I can hear the sadness in her voice.

"You know I always thought the only time I would be seeing you in the hospital was when i did something majorly stupid and you came to visit me." Jack oh my god. I miss your voice. He talks to me telling me how it hurts him to see me like this. He never should have done anything to hurt me at all. He just wanted what was best for me. "I want all the pain for you to stop. It now has.I don't want to loose you, but you can let go," What? Jack what are you saying? "if it hurts too much to stay then go. Just know that you were strong." He says. It hurts so much to stay. It really does, but it would hurt more to leave and not see you before I go.

"Look El. It's snowing. You love the snow." I do. I love the snow. Jack looked so beautiful in the snow. For anything Jack and I's favorite date happened when it was snowing. "I want you to be here with me so bad. You don't even know. But if I don't get to see those beautiful eyes again or kiss those soft lips of yours I at least want you to have this." I had no idea what he was doing or what was happening but something told me it was good. "I ended everything with Amber and bought this while you and I were still dating. It's the ring you loved. I was going to propose to you at the beach where you said you wanted to be proposed to at. But that may never happen. Now I hope you would have said yes because I want you to keep this ring forever. I want you to keep it knowing that my love for you is everlasting. Ella Rose Maloley you are my everything. I lo-" That's when I heard nothing I felt nothing. I was lost.

When I recuperate a bright light blinds me. I was in a hospital room. I hear the beep of the heart monitor next to me. IV's were placed in my arms. Everything about this room scared me. I hate the hospital.

"Miss. Dillon glad to see you awake." A nurse says as she walks into my room.

"H-hi....what happened to me?" I ask all too a little quickly.

"You took some pills that had a counter reaction to alcohol you drank." She tells me. I nod. "Now since you're awake I'm going to call your mother to ask her down here." She tells me as she walks to the door.

"Wait!" I call to her. She reenters the room. "Can you call someone else first. Then call my mother?" I ask. She nods and I give her the number.

I hear feet running then a figure enter the room. "Hey Jack." I say quietly.

"Ella." He says as he releases a breath. He walks over to me and grabs my hand with the ring on it. I look at the ring then back up to Jack.

"I heard everything you said." I tell him. He looks up at me and smiles.

"So what do you say?" He asks getting down on one knee. "Will you marry me?" He asks. I sigh and shake my head.

"I can't Jack. I want you to be happy. I won't make you happy. I'll hold you back. Keep you off focus. I'll only be a big problem for you." I say to him. "I want to see you succeed more than anything. With me in your life you only have drama and police everywhere." I tell him and he shakes his head.

"I don't care. You keep me on focus you make me happy. You won't hold me back because you keep me going. If the cops get in our lives then screw them. They don't matter to me. Only you do. I want you in my life so bad." He said and kisses my hand. "Please marry me."

"Jack I can't. I've made too many mistakes in my life. I know that this one won't be a mistake for me, but for you. Please just...I don't want to ruin anything else." I say and pull my hand away from him. "I love you. I really do. I just love you too much to see me make your world crash and burn. Now please...leave and go back to LA with Ashley, Johnson, Sammy, Nate, Jared, and my mother. Take everyone with you. I don't want to hurt any of you anymore." I tell him. He looks at me with tears in his eyes.

"I can't leave you knowing you're like this." He says.

"I'll be fine. Take everyone away from here, make them forget me, and move on with your lives. Tell them that they won't have a funeral because of what I did." I tell him and I see tears come from his tender eyes.

"I can never forget about you." He says.

"Try at least. If we somehow end up in each other's lives again then maybe it was meant to be. But take my family and go. Do this for me." I say to him. He nod and turns to walk away. I quickly grab his hand and pull him down so my lips meet his. "I love you. Never forget those words." I tell him and he nods before he walks out of the hospital room and out of my life.

Forever.