The Forgotten Minds

Oblivious

I had been a cheerful child growing up, no secrets hidden within my green eyes. I remember eating, sleeping, even feeling happy being a painless, blissful experience. The maze known as life was an effortless puzzle, and being happy was an advantage. Than you make a wrong turn, a wrong move and everything becomes fallacious.Then life left me, it packed it's shit and left me in it's dust as if I was worthless. My dad did the same, he didn't want anything to do with the family he put his time and money into creating. Mom became depressed, older sister moved out because she couldn't put up with mom anymore, then i was just a nonexistent bystander, watching helplessly as my life was slowly being destroyed. I started falling into an abyss of nothingness and complete and utter darkness. That once cheerful and blissful girl was long gone as I fell, and i didn't know how to stop it. I could only cause myself pain by cutting, letting the sharp blade run across my pale skin, that's when i knew for sure the girl that once felt and shared happiness was lost, scared and completely forgotten.

I woke up this morning from another restless night of thinking and contemplating about......well everything I guess. I finally rose from my bed as if my feet had weights attached to them, that feeling then moved to my head, I always had the worst headaches. I dragged my feet to the nearest bathroom, once my bare feet hit the cold tile i winced, i feel ached every morning for some odd reason. I looked into the mirror, I was eye-to-eye with a horrid creature. It had red greasy tangled hair and puke green eyes. Freckles were littering it's face, covering it's cheeks, nose and some scattered on its forehead. It was pale and it's bones were poking out from under it's skin as if it hadn't had a morsel of food in weeks. It was disgusting, plain disgusting and no one can tell me otherwise.

I brushed my hair to make the tangled birds nest somewhat manageable, i ended up throwing it into a messy ponytail. I brushed my teeth, put on some mascara than pasted on some black eyeliner. I put some lip balm on and was ready to go change out of my superman t-shirt and fuzzy back shorts I found across my bedroom floor. I left my bathroom leaving the door ajar to go to my closet, i picked out the usually outfit, black ripped skinny jeans, a blink 182 t-shirt and a red and black flannel. I was satisfied with my choice in apparel today. I grabbed my black backpack and was treading to the door, right next to my front door sat my black vans, i slid them onto my feet over my white socks and turned the sliver handle and headed outside. I didn't eat breakfast because there's no point, i didn't say goodbye to anyone because my mom was probably to depressed to move, so there was really no point.

I felt the cold breeze hit my skin and I instantly shivered from it, i marched towards the house adjacent from my home. My best friend Summer from the 3rd grade happened to live here and she also walked with me to one of my favorite places known as Leo Parks High. Unlike most kids, I enjoyed school, it was a way to distract my mind from any shitty thing that happened in my current life, no mater how many friends I have. It also gives me a drive, a temporary goal, so homework was cool too, but of course i would never tell anyone that, not even Summer.

I knocked on the red door five times in a pattern type form, it was a code to her to let her know it's me, it kind of a little thing we've done for god knows how long, just for fun. She soon swung open the door with a smile plastered on her face, she was beautiful, she had long wavy brown hair and tanned skin with a few freckles here and there on her arms but only one on her face, it was right next to her right nostril. She had hazel eyes that could light up a room, I always was secretly envious of her even if she was my best friend.

"Hey! are you ready to march to my personal hell with me!" Summer said in a cheery voice. "Sorry i left my passport at home, maybe next time" I said with a slight giggle afterwards. " Come on let us go my good friend" we linked arms and started our trail to high school. The whole way Summer was going on about a foreign exchange student from Australia and how hot he's going to be in our first period class but I wasn't listening to her, I was in my own world, remembering the cheerful child I used to present myself as and wondering where had that girl gone? Why did she leave, why did she manifest into some horrible monster of depression and SAD? I miss her, oh god do I miss her, I want her, I want to be her again. "-and I overheard a teacher talking about how he has a lip ring! A fucking lip ring, he must be an adorable bad boy type, you know what I mean? i can't even believe th- hey what's wrong? why are you crying?" I'm crying? I raised my hand up to my face to wipe a salty tear that fell on my cheek. Did remembering the girl i used to be bring me to tears? I guess I just thinking about it makes me sad, not because I was like that but because I'm not like that anymore.

"I'm fine, there was just an eyelash stuck in my eye, you can continue" I didn't want to make Summer worry, anyone as a matter of fact. "there is something wrong, but you don't have to talk about because i can tell you don't want to, just know I'm here if you want to talk okay?" she knows me so well, "you know me so well" I said with a small smile. She stopped walking and I wondered why, I look up and saw my school right in front of my face. " Ladies and gentlemen, we bring you here to......the shittest place in the world!" Summer practically screamed and received a few head turns. I buried my head in my hands wanting to hide, I hate drawing attention to myself, Summer has always been extremely outgoing, unlike me, I've always been shy ever since dad left.

We walked up to the entrance to our school, as we walked down the halls I couldn't help but notice how many people Summer was saying hi to, she always had more friends then me. I only had a few friends here and there other then Summer, like Andy, Aurora, Kayla and Mackenzie but other then that i wasn't always that popular. Popularity was something I never really gave two shits about because it was so stupid. Oh your so fucking cool because you have a lot of friends, here have a cookie, it really was stupid. Therefore I really wasn't concentrated on making loads of friends and wanting dates to the dances or having a giant sleepover, those things are foreign to me.

I walked into first period and started to speed walk over to my seat not really wanting to talk to anyone, Summer ended up talking with a group of friends I didn't know that well so I just decided to sit and read my favorite book, 1984 by Geogre Orwell, I always loved it and always will love it . I love books, there jut another way to escape reality and enjoy the comfort of experiencing other lives, its beautiful. I was snapped out a trance when the door opened very loudly, knowing Mr.Ross he was probably late for the 100th time this year but it wasn't. It was a tall guy with brown hair not exactly forming a quiff, I noticed his black lip ring so maybe he's the foreign exchange student from Australia Summer was nattering on about. He was wearing a Green day t-shirt, black skinny jeans and a grey beanie, he was indeed attractive but he would never want to talk to a girl like me. He probably thought I was a freak, guys usually go for girls who are really girly and like dresses and going shopping, which is not me.

He was searching for an unoccupied chair to sit in but there was only two, the one next to me and one by the trash can all the way in the back of the room, shit , i hope he picks the trash seat. Shit shit shit he's coming this way I repeat he is coming this way, I can't deal with this right now, my nerves would just come and fuck everything up. He pulls out the chair that was next to me and sits down, he gives me a half smile, "Hi" oh no Aeron, say something quick, he'll think your weird, say something....i don't know normal. "h-hi" I did it, mission complete, even though I can't even look at him, instead I'm fiddling with my fingers, "Names Charlie, what's yours?", "My n-name is um i-its um a-a-Aeron" I stutter way too much, I can't let my nerves control me but i guess i just can't help it. "Cool name, is the teacher always this late?". I look up to face him for the first time, he was handsome i'll give him that, he had brown eyes and deep dimples that gave off a more friendly vibe."Y-yeah usually, h-he's always l-late", "I had a teacher just like that, he was late every single day and he ended up getting fired after a year" he said with a slight chuckle at the end.

Luckily Mr.Ross came in just then, once he was in the room he closed the door behind him fairly loudly, he always did that. He was wearing a black blazer with a red button up underneath, he was also wearing black pants with dress shoes. He was a older man, I would guess in his early 50's, but that's just based on looks. I start to thinking about what mom must be doing right, she usually just wondering around the house practically doing nothing as if she had it worse than me, which I don't think she did, my mom grew up with both her parents and her younger brother in the suburbs, she was spoiled. I live in an three bed room apartment with a depressed mom and an older sister who just left me with her. But this isn't a pity party, I shouldn't be thinking this because I could be so much more unaccepted. Life makes you suck it up and deal with what you have, I hate life.

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Hey wattpad, this is my first story ever and I'm really excited to start writing, sorry if you see a lot of spelling errors I sadly suck at spelling so if you see any just let me know so I can change it, I'm sorry about the cursing I just feel like I should of typed it at that time and it fit the story, sorry if that doesn't makes any sense, thank you for any support I get (lets be honest only 1 person is probably going to read it) thank you for reading and i hope you enjoyed, bye! -Lily <3( P.S I just went back to change a few things so the grammar is somewhat better and I also fixed the majority of the spelling mistakes.)