The Forgotten Minds

Not Alone

I was still in class thinking about life and friends and anything at this point, to as small as if I'm going to eat tonight or as big as what's the meaning or reason I'm here. This happens a lot, I start to wonder about things, just simple light-hearted subjects, but those thoughts turn into some negative thoughts, then all of them become negative and then i start paincing and than it all goes down hill from there. I'm suddenly taken away from my mind when I feel a slight pain on the side of my leg as if a pencil poked it.

I look to face Charlie who was staring at me with a slight smile on his face, "hey um are you suppose to take notes for the lectures the teacher gives or does nobody do that?", I never take notes for this class, I always got bad grades in this class and this class only. Okay calm down, say something or he'll think your a freak or something. "Um y-you don't have to, I n-never do b-but you can i-if you want" I say in an barely audible voice. "oh okay, I just wanted to make sure, if I get in trouble because I didn't take any notes I'm blaming you" he says with a slight chuckle at the end, I just laugh as well because I'm to nervous to say anything, i'm surprised the teacher hasn't noticed, he always has been a monotone type teacher, not containing any emotion in his voice.

"Aeron, do you know when the cold war toke place?" I feel my body tense up, I begin feeling perturbed and distressed, I knew the answer but i just can't say it. "Um, it, um h-h-happened-" "During 1945 to 1991" Charlie said while standing up, he looked at me and smiled, was he really this generous? "Aeron must answer the question not you Charlie, Aeron please stand up and answer the question" Mr.Ross spoke still with a monotone type voice. I stood up nearly tripping over my own feet.

"Um, um it um" I started hearing people around the classroom whispering words like "freak" or "psycho", I couldn't take it anymore, I just can't answer the question, I can't control myself, I heard people whispering these awful things about and I didn't want to. I started feeling scared, more than scared, my throat felt as if there was something blocking it making me unable to breath or talk, my whole body started tensed up I started noticing I was slightly shaking with fear, I felt painful tears stinging my eyes so that's when I lost it.

My feet started to move, I have to leave as soon as possible that's all I thought, I heard someone scream my name, it sounded like Summer but I can't talk I can't breathe I can't even feel. I ignored her just letting myself run to the girls bathroom, I finally found my self coiled up in a ball on the bathroom stall floor. I didn't care if it was dirty, I just wanted to cry, lay here and cry until the day was over. I feel as if there was a fire burning me but at the same time I felt like I was in a freezer. I was paralyzed and crippled, unable to move or talk or feel, I was numb.

I suddenly felt a lengthy are linger above my shoulders, I didn't want to look up so I didn't, "hey it's me Charlie" I couldn't believe my ears, how could it be Charlie? Why wasn't Summer here? Why would he come instead of her, she always does and she promised if this ever happened. I moved my head up in a sluggish form to meet eye-to-eye with Charlie. It was him.

"W-why are you h-here, g-go away" I didn't want him here, I didn't want him to see me cry a puddle, I didn't want him to see me having a panic attack but at the same time I did, which was confusing for me and possibly him as well. "I want to stay here, help you go through this, to be honest I used to be the same way, I used to have social anxiety and also depression and I know you don't want to talk right now, you probably can't, but I'm going to sit here right next to you" that was probably the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me, I felt something, I don't know what but it was definitely something.

I did exactly what I wanted and that was cry, I rested my head on his shoulder and started to sob, I picked up his scent which was a mix of mint and cologne, for some reason I loved it. He didn't seem to care that I was getting my tears on his shirt, he just sat there and cooing things like "it's okay" or "i'll get better" and I knew it wouldn't but i want to pretend for today.

I started feeling more relaxed but now just left with the aftermath of what just happened feeling emotionally tired. I then realized I was still resting my head on Charlie's shoulder so I replaced myself on the wall and Charlie removed his arm from my shoulders. "I'm so s-sorry, I can't believe I just did that in f-front of you" I said hanging my head low looking my fingers intertwine with each other. "I don't know why your apologizing to me, there's no reason you should be, I just hope you feel better" His accent is so soothing, it in a way calms me down, "thank you" I'm not so nervous right now, I'm more calm and I'm starting to trust him. "No problem" He puts his arm back around my shoulder and I rest my head back on him, it gives me a slight chill, feeling that weird/good feeling that I can't describe.

I wait outside for Summer and Mackenzie, the professor they have for 8th period always let them out late. I start seeing to figures coming towards me, it must be them, once they reach me they practically tackle me with hugs "I'm so sorry I didn't come, the exchange student told me he had it and before I could say anything he was already gone" Summer said sounding like she was on the verge of tears. "It's okay, I'm fine now, honest" I said while returning the hug to the both of them. "I wish I had the same first period as you guys, I only have fourth period and lunch with you Aeron!" Mackenzie said while pulling out of the hug along with Summer. Mackenzie had dirty blonde hair and bright blue eyes, she was thin, she was one of the most "popular" girls in school, but she was nice to everyone, even me, the ugly girl in the back of the class that listened to way to many bands and just was a ball of depression. Mackenzie's phone started to ring obnoxiously loud, she pulled it out of her pocket and held it up to her ear.

"Hello?....oh hey Andy............yeah......ok......sorry i'll be right there I was just talking with Aeron and Summer......yeah she's alright.....ok I'm on my way.....love you to babe.....ok bye" Mackenzie put her phone back in her pocket before she spoke. "That was Andy, he's waiting in his car for me I have to go and also Aeron please call me if you ever feel.....I guess sad again. I'll always be here for you, Summer too, bye" she gave us one last hug before leaving. "I guess we should get going" Summer said with a sigh and a smile, you could see her worried expression as clear as glass. "I'm really fine and I'm not even close to being mad at you because you didn't come, your always there for me and I'm not mad at all because I know you mean well, your my best friend and if I am mad at you it's probably for a stupid reason if anything" I said with a slight chuckle at the end, it wasn't because it was funny but it was because I wanted to lighten up the mood.

"Promise?" Summer said questioningly, "promise". We linked arms and started heading home after a long day of the place I though was my safe haven.

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Hey, I know this is a little shorter then the last chapter but I just thought this would be a good place to end it. I think im going to publish another chapter tomorrow, I really can't believe im writing a story, i've never done this before so please don't be to hard on me, also if this seems a little like anxiety attack im sorry, I love that story and I don't mean for it to be so much like that story, im trying to change as much as I can about so it turns out nothing like it just give it some time. Any errors that are in here I did see them, my computer is being very glitchy at the moment and it won't let me go back and fix certain parts of the story, hope you enjoyed-lily <3