"Want to know how I felt with the thought of another man's touching what's mine?" His finger edge deeper inside of me, tears dripping down my face, light sobs echo throughout the room.
"I was envious." My fingernails dug into his skin, sobbing agai...
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DAWN DRAKOS Seattle, Washington . . .
Fear was an interesting emotion, it creeps up on you so suddenly that you cannot help but be scared. My feelings for Roman crept up on me, while the feelings I have for my family came to light.
My throat and eyes burned as we drove up the street to my home, my one true place of comfort. My mouth went dry as Roman pulled into the driveway, fear struck me again nothing but rage and sadness mixed.
"Thank you, for tonight." My own words ached as they left my mouth, I felt his gaze bore into my cheek as it did the entire ride home. The car was filled with silence it did nothing for my nerves.
"It's not a problem, Dawn." Tears sting my eyes, and I reached for the door but he hit the locks. A sigh ran through me and I dragged my eyes to him, looking at him was like bracing for impact in a car crash.
"Darling..." his voice was low, it ached with emotions and allowed me to see that he is human, not the monster people say he is.
"Goodnight, Roman," I'd open the door, tearing my gaze away from his. I could smell the fresh scent of rain as my heels connect to the cobblestone pathway.
Something in me grew restless, the words that left my mouth tonight hurt me more than they did my parents. Yet my parental issues made me crave love, even if I was willing to find it in the wrong place.
Silence followed me into my home, my comfort place was like a museum filled with false hope and broken dreams while I hid behind baked goods. The little girl in me cringed at every word said tonight, this knot in my throat doubled in size.
The knot in my body tripled, choking me, suffocating me. That restless little girl inside of me couldn't sit here and act like I was okay when I wasn't. So many words were said and yet I wanted it to be fake.
I'm pathetic, I stood from the sofa and headed straight for the door grabbing my car keys. The taste of guilt filled my mouth since I left the event tonight and it did nothing but made me restless.
Light rain fell from the sky, making the silk material of the dress cling to my body before I entered the car. The fear of being unloved touched my mind since I was a child, my family gave me a reason to feel like that.
Why? god, it sounded like a broken record in my mind. Trying to understand why are they treating me like this. I'd been a people pleaser for so long, I want to fix every problem to make them keep loving me.
My eyes sting as I drove down the roads and my mouth went dry as I kept driving. That same silence followed me into the car not enough 'One Direction' albums can drive it out.
Before I knew it, I pulled into the parking lot. It's been so long since I'd been here, the rain grew heavier and my YSL heels were crying for help, these are so not shoes to wear in the rain.
