London calls me a stranger

Chapter 9

Sam's POV

Why is it that every time I'm with one of them I end up in tears back in my dorm. I've only been here.. What... Five days?! I'm sick of it! My fist punched the white wall of my dorm, forcing a photo to fall off and float down on to my bed.

I gazed down at the photo, it was a picture of me and April holding up our acceptance letters to RU. Our faces ecstatic, I had started to cry. My puffy eyes rimmed with red from the tears, full of hope and excitement. If only I knew then what this hell would be like. The university felt like a prison. I kept getting thrashed between guilt and emotion. I was scared to do or say anything incase I make a situation worse or even if Matt finds out about it. I was slightly scared of him. The way he towers above me when he wants "to talk". He can find out anything about me. But I found him strangely attractive. The way I felt like he really cared for me when he tried to make it up to me after the horrendous days before. But that was all gone now! How dare he say that slept with him! I'm not that type of girl!

I did go back to class after about five minutes. I was sure to sit away from Conor and Matt. But I could feel their eyes burning into my soul. I felt the cold gaze of Conor, icy blue. And the deep dark gaze of Matt, so dark almost black. I felt these looks were for the same reason. They needed to talk to me. I didn't want to talk. When class was over, Geller called me over and said to write a statement about what had happened. Matt could be done for assault, but the university is letting him off with a warning because it was Conor that started the fight. I was to tired. To bored of this constant circle of events; I feel something, something happens, Matt finds out, and I run to my dorm crying. Why can't I just curl up into a ball and hibernate?

When I left the classroom, the corridor was silent. My footsteps echoed through the halls. Just then a warm touch made me jump. I turned to see the face of Matt, beaming down to me. A smile making his dimples prominent. I did not smile. My lips stayed neutral. No emotion. "Well hello to you too!" He said in a jolly voice.

I shrugged his hand off my shoulder. "I have nothing to say to you Matt" I say continuing my route down the corridor.

He runs ahead of me, blocking my path. "So listen.. My band it playing at The Glass Slipper on Wednesday! Do you want to come?" He said, his eyes full of admiration.

I look at his as if he was joking. "Matt, do you really think I'm just going to brush this off?" I said a little louder.

"What off?" He looked at me confused. "Oh right, Conor! Sam it's just a little fun!"

"Yes you nearly getting done for assault is a little bit of fun! Is it?"

"Hey he swung at me first. It's just self defence." He said, gripping my arm.

"Self defence! You bust his lip Matt! And also, I don't recall you and me having sex, so how could you say that I was a good shag? Last time I checked I was a virgin!"

"You're a virgin?" He said, smirking, trying to keep his laugh in. His grip tightened. He squared me off, slightly pushing me against the wall. Leaning down he went in for a kiss, but at the last second, he turned my ear. "Not for long" he whispered. I pushed him away in disgust and sped down the corridor. I hear his obnoxious laugh echo after me. "See you around, Sam!" He yelled after me.

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(Tuesday)

Sam's POV

I slept for too long. I ran out of bed in a hot flush. Pulled on a sugar pink pleated skirt, that hung from the waist down to mid thigh, and a knitted jumper the colour of oatmeal. I swing a black cross body over my shoulder and head to the music department for my first singing lesson. My teacher, Professor Martinez, saw my very first audition for RU's performing arts course. She didn't seem impressed. She was very hard on her students and was known for her forceful and strict ways. But she was also know for making west end stars. That's what I want to be! I dream for my name to be up in lights. To be recognised on the street and to inspire young children to chase their dreams, cause they'll get there one day! And even if I get endless abuse from this woman, I don't care! She is making me star if it kills her... or me!